Residential treatment

I called the crisis line number, and they told me to call an ambulance to take me to the hospital.

I told them I was suicidal and didn't admmit me again, I told them while I was IP and they discharged me anyway. after leaving IP I returned tu ER crying and explaining everything to other psychiatrist, I told her it was likely I ended up death because even if I didnt want to die the suicidal urges where too much, and she talked to a superior and return saying me they thought It was better I am not IP. So I wast IP agaain. They said I need long term intensive treatment and therefor IP wont help, but I just wanted it to be safe not to get intensive treatment since it is an acute psych ward. Ironically there is not intensive outpatient treatment for me, I asked my psychiatrist who is the most reputated in the area and the coordinator of the only two day hospitals and he told me there wasnt intesnive outpatient programs for me because they were thoughts for other kinds of issues I dont have, and then I wont benefict from their activities.

I live in spain.

Seriously, I dont know what to do anymore. It is not I dont want to follow what youu say it is just it doesnt apply to my country or I was denied that few days ago.

Ok
I will try er again

Please do. I don't want anything bad to happen to you, or you to hurt someone else. I really don't think you are that type of person. Keep us posted.

The ER psychiatrist was extremelly rude and told me I was manipulating her by saying I had suicidal and homicidal ideation, but IP me anyway.

The IP doctor was an asshole who told me he would lock me up for three weeks and didn't want to hear me.

After he left in the afternoon I asked to talk with the psychiatrist it is always there (there is always a psychiatrist during the rest of the day when the rest leave). I explain her everything, and she told me actually my IP psychiatrist planned to discharge me tomorrow morning so she saw no problem at discharge me now.

That's it. I am home. More angry, but at home.

I am going to the day hospital tomorrow morning since it opens from holidays, good. People there are nice.

The hospital for residential treatment doesn't provide anymore treatment specific for PTSD and CPTSD.

I am sorry you are having such a problem when it comes to being heard. But, Oliver, while you have a lot of anger, please keep in mind that these people who work at these IP facilities have to follow a program and it isn't like they have the resources you may think they have or think you should have. This is something that is a challenge in a lot of places, even here in the US. These facilities tend to be very busy and their purpose is to get patients stabilized and move them out to make space for another patient. So the people that work in these places are bound to follow that program even if they want a patient to have more than they are getting they have to follow the rules set up which as I mentioned is to get a patient stabilized ASAP so that other patients can also be serviced.

The IP facility I went was an acute ward, I was for suicidal and homicidal ideation, but since they are not instructed about PTSD they made me worse.

I am not talking about special service or treatment, I am talking about being told I was manipulative and been discharged without giving me the chance of explaining myself. I wasn't and I am not minimal stabilized.

The residential treatment hospital... it is not for just stabilization but rehabilitation, it doesn't have rehab for PTSD.

Is the whole MH system in Spain like that or just these places close to you? I'm glad you said where you are from because I expect things are different in different countries. What we may be telling you may not even apply where you are. I wish we could help you more.

Thank you.

The MH system is not really bad, the problem is I live in a tiny city, therefore there are less psychotherapist and the day hospital rehab program includes a lot of family... therapy? understanding? involving?

They try to involve your relatives in your healhing (the day hospital age range from 16 to 30), they have family therapy....

But I have no family so.... there is nothing to work there and since I am highly functioning compared to those without family I am not sent to a special home (i don't know how are they called, you live there with other impaired people and there is always someone during the day and night to help).

Also, since the day hospital is not specialized on anything because there are not enough people to make 10 different day hospitals for 10 different conditions, the activities are generic, simple and the easier (cognitively) you can imagine. There are people with borderline IQ so figure out... It is extremely boring, when I was sent here my ex-T told me he wasn't interested about me doing the activities because they would be too basic and told me he was about continuing therapy with the day hospital psychotherapist. (He also said I had a little Narciso inside... it is true, that's why I hate exessive autority, paternalistic psychiatrists, and giving up... and it is the main reason why I am doing on of the hardest degree in my country even if mentally I am really ****ed up. And is also the reason why I accidentally annoy doctors by telling them what to prescribe me lol, I like controlling it since I am studying pharmacy and know what to take, actually I told my psychiatrist about gabapentin, he prescribed it only twice and has been working for 30 years as a psychiatrist.... He said I gave him a ton of helpful information about it, about it vs pregabalin,side effects, toleration, etc... He doesn't get annoyed when I talk about what i think Ishould take but most of doctors do)

My therapist is not bad, he is just old and slow.... we exchanged books, and I look at them when I feel bad and find confort. But I have a defiant personality, and sometimes I confuse him. He is smart but being that old he doesn't think really quick. My ex-T was much quicker so he understood what I wanted to say each session me from the beginning of it instead of being most of time rambling.

I am by my own. But I can survive. I am full of rage to die to die so soon. Pride and wrath are my sins.