[kjworley]

I completely cannot cope anymore with my dissociation that is a part of my CPTSD. I have suffered through PTSD from the time I was a young child and into my adult years, despite being adopted by grandparents and removed from the initial abuse that I went through.

I have no support from my husband or other family members. I keep telling him that I don't want to talk about anything and he can't seem to understand that I don't want to talk. Not to him, not to strangers, not to counselors. I just want to get through my dissociation. He can't even understand that I just don't want to talk whenever he brings things up. He just gets angry and is telling me he's supporting me but I can't believe that whenever I get yelled at over not wanting to talk to him.

When I dissociate I get violent and I keep telling him not to bring up certain things because I've been getting violent and lashing out physically. He doesn't understand that he's setting me off by trying to force me to talk about things for some reason.

I've tried every possible way to let him know that he's setting me off and yet he still gets angry and yells at me and then denies that he is yelling at me.

Yes, I know it sounds like an abusive situation, but it really isn't. I understand he's frustrated but at the same time I can't talk about things and if I do, I will dissociate. It's a given. Coping skills don't help.

[reb569]

It sounds like you've already ruled it out, but it sounds like me that you need to reach out for help from a mi professional of some sort. You don't necessarily need to talk about the cause initially, but the symptoms and what can be done to help you get them under control. Best of luck.

[seesaw]

Originally Posted by kjworley

I completely cannot cope anymore with my dissociation that is a part of my CPTSD. I have suffered through PTSD from the time I was a young child and into my adult years, despite being adopted by grandparents and removed from the initial abuse that I went through.

I have no support from my husband or other family members. I keep telling him that I don't want to talk about anything and he can't seem to understand that I don't want to talk. Not to him, not to strangers, not to counselors. I just want to get through my dissociation. He can't even understand that I just don't want to talk whenever he brings things up. He just gets angry and is telling me he's supporting me but I can't believe that whenever I get yelled at over not wanting to talk to him.

When I dissociate I get violent and I keep telling him not to bring up certain things because I've been getting violent and lashing out physically. He doesn't understand that he's setting me off by trying to force me to talk about things for some reason.

I've tried every possible way to let him know that he's setting me off and yet he still gets angry and yells at me and then denies that he is yelling at me.

Yes, I know it sounds like an abusive situation, but it really isn't. I understand he's frustrated but at the same time I can't talk about things and if I do, I will dissociate. It's a given. Coping skills don't help.

I have been through loads of treatment and my dissociative spells are down to few and far between. Can you describe the symptoms of your dissociative episodes? I need to do this for a request for reasonable accommodations at work, and I don't know how to describe a dissociative episode to them. They just think I'm going on the rampage or something, instead of actually feeling in danger and protecting myself.

Would love to understand more about what your dissociative episodes are like.

Thanks,
Seesaw

[kjworley]

Originally Posted by seesaw

I have been through loads of treatment and my dissociative spells are down to few and far between. Can you describe the symptoms of your dissociative episodes? I need to do this for a request for reasonable accommodations at work, and I don't know how to describe a dissociative episode to them. They just think I'm going on the rampage or something, instead of actually feeling in danger and protecting myself.

Would love to understand more about what your dissociative episodes are like.

Thanks,
Seesaw

Mine are very much like what you described- going on a rampage is what I do. I know that before my thoughts swirl and I ask people to please leave me alone or I'm going to have a flashback, but that doesn't necessarily stop them from happening. I simply don't remember anything of them and lose time, so I don't think that I can be of much help.