Does this really apply to me...!?

Last session Psychologist said that she felt CPTSD rather than depression was the main issue and that was the reason for changing focus and switching from Schema to EMDR.
When I think about my life events and triggers - I just can't equate them to 'trauma'.
Trauma to me is someone who saw or experienced something horrific - perhaps through their line of work, was badly injured, suffered great loss etc.
I know it's not helpful to compare one's own experiences with others, but it doesn't seem right to me, to even put myself in the same bracket. Much the same as I don't regard myself as being ill. A previous counsellor once said to me "we are going to get you well". I was both embarrassed and angry at the same time, I told her I did not and never had, thought of myself as being ill.
I guess that's why I'm feeling so ambivalent about therapy.

Don't get upset about it. Fighting it will just make your anxiety worse. You are right to not compare traumas. It's not the severity of the trauma but what impact it has on you. My trauma's may have no impact on you, but it did on me and that's what matters.

I had issues with being labeled with a diagnosis as well. If you don't share the diagnosis with anyone else they will never know. It will just be something between you and your providers. "Get you well" is an unfair expectation. Our traumas are memories now and you can't delete memories from the mind.

Though we can learn to deal with them better. That's where learning skills and practicing them comes into play. But if you are not willing to commit to practicing the skills your recovery could take a lot longer.

My issues with therapy is that I can't do it on my own and that irritates me that I have to have help with it. But I tried to do it on my own and it only got worse. So I have come to terms with therapy now as a benefit to feeling better and trying to get my life back.

I wish I could paint the road to recovery as an easy and pleasant road. But that would be lying. It's hard work and often gets worse before it gets better. Just have to keep our eyes on the prize at the end.

I’m guessing she has the diagnosis “right” as I don’t think they would diagnose somebody with this who doesn’t have it.... it’s the effect it had on you which is the most important thing.

I agree with what Trace wrote... comparing traumas isn’t helpful..

I wouldn’t like what the counsellor said either about “we are going to get you well” although it sounded like she had good intentions

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