cptsdvictim's journal

Final changes in. Aaanndd, the tests are failing. Spent the entire day trying to figure out how to make them work but nothing gives in. Asked the community. Argh! When I was so close. If I don't solve it by tomorrow morning I'm pressing ahead without them. Leaving them to be fixed later.

On Friday afternoon I'll meet a friend for lunch. I'm proud of myself that I kept a boundary: can't talk about my app. He was ok with it saying we can make conversation on subjects other than work. I'll see if he wants to talk about work and if so I'll make it clear that I can talk about work just not about this project (he'd need an NDA if we would talk about it).

Relaxing in a cafe now. Today, for lunch, I was pleasantly surprised to see they've brought in Malabar Curry. Of course, without hesitation, I bought a portion. I felt so good (still feeling good) after eating it. So good! The decaf oat latte (second one, after the decaf Americano with oat milk and a croissant in tbe morning) after the Malabar Curry was so good. Not a bad day today. Even had some small talk with B. the server of coffee I've in the morning on some days of the week. The staff there are awesome. Too bad I'm a sociopath and retraumatized. I wish I'd be more upbeat, connected and would know how to resonate with them. Most people find connection over complaining, nowadays. Not me. I wouldn't know what to say. I stick to the positive but then get stuck without knowing what to say. It's easier in writing and at distance. I guess my extreme anxiety, as my trauma therapist put it, is the culprit. Inside Out 2 resonated with me on this theme.

Gutenmorgen. After consulting with the community and receiving a few ideas, I debugged my tests further and realized what I was missing. Fixed them this morning. All is good when all is good. My changes will be complete (with the rest of the tests to be added later).

Today's going to be a looong day. I need to review my changes locally after merging all of them. Then I'll have a smoked.tofu wrap for lunch followed by a decaf oat latte. Then I'll review the changes some more and if no further modifications required, open a pull request. At which point I go through my changes once again and if all is good, merge. I hope by end of tomorrow I'll finish the reviews and merge.

It's coming together.

Another successful day. Tomorrow is the last day to get the changes merged in. Over 2800 additions and over 600 deletions. Another monstrous commit.

Now, relaxing. I'll hopefully have a soup for dinner and head for the shelter to relax. Counting the days until Saturday evening when I'll have Chana Masala. I watched some travel video from India and got my appetite for Indian food going, haha.

Hi. I'm listening to "Into the unknown" Frozen song in the cafe. It always resonates with me. I love this song.

Today I got the changes merged in. Noticed a few problems for which I opened a bug and other issues. They are in! Thousands of changes. I'm sooooo tired. Couldn't continue work so I took off early. 1 and a ½ hours earlier. Rescheduled the meeting with my friend to next Friday.

Tomorrow and the next week will be a easy going one. Nothing major, will just work on the issues I've opened in the past. Maybe I'll fix some bugs. Hopefully.

Tomorrow the day comes: Chana Masala. And before that, coffee with oat milk and a croissant in the morning, tofu wrap and a decaf oat latte for lunch.
Made also some progress on reading T.W. It's always so heavy. Right now I'll listen to Sociopath until dinner time. Just need to finish watching the debate between Trump and Biden. Got a few minutes left.

After all this 1 week of holiday will come. Pray for good weather, though I don't make expectations and will dress for rainy season with a hint of warmth.

Today I ****ing killed it. Bugs slashed, new app functionality introduced. Everything about the day went smooth.

Have to bear with the host speaking as she was flooded with anxiety at the thought of dying from COVID back when the pandemic was in full effect

Mornin'. Today I've merged my changes for a bug fix I left to review from last week. In 15 minutes I will start my week. As always, Mondays call for a decaf Americano with oat milk and a croissant 🥐. Followed by work. Followed by lunch and a decaf oat latte, followed by more work and, finally, followed by dinner and rest.

Watched

A somewhat successful day. Why is it one thinks one will spend an hour on an issue just to end up spending almost the entire day implementing it? Also, some tests are failing and, for the love of the universe, I can't tell why. They should succeed as I'm comparing two identical objects. Other tests in the same.form succeed, just these three don't.

I'll try.a tactic tomorrow morning to see.if it does the trick. Until then, it's relax time.

Quite heavy. Taking breaks is useful

me to a T.

Also, debugged my failing tests and realized what is happening. It's more complicated than first thought.

The day came to a close. It was ok. I managed to get some issues done. Discovered and fixed some bugs. Opened other issues with further things discovered. Tried all my arsenal on the failing tests, couldn't get them to pass. It's the database that behaves weird. Pending answer from the development team.

And now: time to relax. Tomorrow's a new day. I'll end this one with a soup (hopefully). The tofu wrap and a decaf oat latte I had today were awesome. Tomorrow morning I'll have my decaf Americano with oat milk and a croissant 🥐. Nice way to start the day. Hope I'll run into L. She's always so nurturing and just amazing. If I would've been in a better situation (read: not homeless) and not a sociopath I'd have married her.