cptsdvictim's journal

Final changes in. Aaanndd, the tests are failing. Spent the entire day trying to figure out how to make them work but nothing gives in. Asked the community. Argh! When I was so close. If I don't solve it by tomorrow morning I'm pressing ahead without them. Leaving them to be fixed later.

On Friday afternoon I'll meet a friend for lunch. I'm proud of myself that I kept a boundary: can't talk about my app. He was ok with it saying we can make conversation on subjects other than work. I'll see if he wants to talk about work and if so I'll make it clear that I can talk about work just not about this project (he'd need an NDA if we would talk about it).

Relaxing in a cafe now. Today, for lunch, I was pleasantly surprised to see they've brought in Malabar Curry. Of course, without hesitation, I bought a portion. I felt so good (still feeling good) after eating it. So good! The decaf oat latte (second one, after the decaf Americano with oat milk and a croissant in tbe morning) after the Malabar Curry was so good. Not a bad day today. Even had some small talk with B. the server of coffee I've in the morning on some days of the week. The staff there are awesome. Too bad I'm a sociopath and retraumatized. I wish I'd be more upbeat, connected and would know how to resonate with them. Most people find connection over complaining, nowadays. Not me. I wouldn't know what to say. I stick to the positive but then get stuck without knowing what to say. It's easier in writing and at distance. I guess my extreme anxiety, as my trauma therapist put it, is the culprit. Inside Out 2 resonated with me on this theme.

Gutenmorgen. After consulting with the community and receiving a few ideas, I debugged my tests further and realized what I was missing. Fixed them this morning. All is good when all is good. My changes will be complete (with the rest of the tests to be added later).

Today's going to be a looong day. I need to review my changes locally after merging all of them. Then I'll have a smoked.tofu wrap for lunch followed by a decaf oat latte. Then I'll review the changes some more and if no further modifications required, open a pull request. At which point I go through my changes once again and if all is good, merge. I hope by end of tomorrow I'll finish the reviews and merge.

It's coming together.

Another successful day. Tomorrow is the last day to get the changes merged in. Over 2800 additions and over 600 deletions. Another monstrous commit.

Now, relaxing. I'll hopefully have a soup for dinner and head for the shelter to relax. Counting the days until Saturday evening when I'll have Chana Masala. I watched some travel video from India and got my appetite for Indian food going, haha.