Really Anxious

Well, I joined PC while I was traveling out of state to see my good friends in the state I used to live in.

I have been with my friends in the state of MN for a couple days now.

But today is the day I start driving back to CO - my present home state. I left CO to come on this trip because things weren't going well for me there - I just threw some items in a suitcase and left for my friends - I left pretty much "fed up" with my situation there - needed a break.

Well, today I have to "go home". And "home" hasn't been a great place for me - its been hard and tense with my husband. I also have experienced a lot of bullying since I moved.

So - I am just very nervous and anxious today about going back. The depression and anxiety had lifted quite a lot here with my friends - they treat me like I'm just "ok" and not like I'm some sort of freak (which is how I feel I'm treated "back home"). I just relaxed and enjoyed being treated normally - and I felt normal then too (while visiting here).

Anyway, I have no way - no means - no place - to stay here. Establishing such on my own would be difficult and rough and maybe impossible (due to depressed economy and job situation here).

So I feel I have no choice but to go home and try to make it work. I am however, TOO NERVOUS AND ANXIOUS about going home.

I know the feeling you go back and everyone you know treats you like you are a human and real and nothing wrong but once we have to go back to where we came from it is like a differnet world different place put a smile on and tell yourself one day at a time it seems to work for me prayers are with you on a safe journey home

Probably right. I got home and I lived. LOL ha ha