feeling like I am not any good

I am so tired of feeling worthless. Like I can't do anything right. I was making my lunch this morning and I couldn't get it to fit into the tortilla shell and I freaked out and through it away. When oh when will I start to feel better. I'm tired of the depression. I'm tired of the old tapes playing over and over. Will it ever end?

Hello, hugs46. Sorry your life is so hard right now. I will keep you in my thoughts.

when i am depressed i can't see the good in me either. but i know you will feel better and then you will see yourself as you truly are, not cloaked in that depression. you are still you, you just can't see you right now. i hope you feel better soon, hugs.

(((hugs)))

I know what you meant.. I really do.
I think that the first thing is to realise that you are not worthless and that there are people that love and care for you xx Easy to say.. impossible to think and know x

dear Hugs46,

I too wonder if it will ever end. Afterall, Ive attended the best DBT groups, been to some of country's best inpatient and partial hospotalizations. over and over.I am swamped with examples of DBT, CBT, RET....they are just ways to cope to put in a toolbag, but I too am tired and have been unsuccessful. How am I going to get through this day? I think I just used my reply to you for me... sorry..I just thought, by now, things would be easier and I would be making better choices and be more carefree. Well, thats all. I hope you have a better day and upcoming weekend.

[quote=StacyMay;1518603]dear Hugs46,

I too wonder if it will ever end. Afterall, Ive attended the best DBT groups, been to some of country's best inpatient and partial hospotalizations. over and over.I am swamped with examples of DBT, CBT, RET....they are just ways to cope to put in a toolbag, but I too am tired and have been unsuccessful. How am I going to get through this day? I think I just used my reply to you for me... sorry..I just thought, by now, things would be easier and I would be making better choices and be more carefree. Well, thats all. I hope you have a better day and upcoming weekend.

Yeah, I've been there. Getting frustrated, annoyed and angry over little things that shouldn't matter much. I am so glad you threw that tortilla out. I hope you threw out your anger and frustration with it! Deep down, did you really want to eat that tortilla anyway? Give yourself permission to do something that will make you happier and make life easier - like buying lunch. You're worth it!

I get this way sometimes too. I think "If I only did this thing this way or that way, or where would I be if I did this sooner", drives me nuts sometimes.

HUGS, I understand. Ive been in treatment for major depressive disorder and borderling pers dis. for 15 years. I am JUST learning to understand that other people have feelings for me and really want me to be well. Depression is the greatest thief of all. Hope u have a good day.

one day you will laugh at all this,, that is the day you know you have it beaten,,, hope it's sooner,,

Hugs, you're the right size, it's the filling in the tortilla shell that doesn't fit!

Thanks everyone for your kind words. It is so hard to stop thinking that way when you have done so all your life. Thanks again.