[2much2bear]

My whole life I have covered up things that made me sad. My family called me fat at a young age. I pretended it didn't bother me, but it was eating me up inside. I have tried to lose weight but nothing ever happens. I have worked out in the gym 5 days a week for 2 years while eating nothing but Weight Watchers and it go me no where. I'm still over weight and my family makes sure they tell me everytime they see me. I try to keep my distance from them because now everything is coming to a head. I can't take it anymore. I can't pretend like things don't bother me. I have often wondered if suicide is the answer. Then I look at my children and can't bear the thought of them growing up without a mother. In 2009 I suffered a brain hemorrhage that nearly cost me my life. My blood pressure was 201/112 and my heart started to give out, my brain was bleeding and sweeling. After months of physical therapy to learn to walk and read again I founf out that my memory had been affected. Years of college went out the window. I can't remember any thing I learned in 11 years of going to college. My job quit me. They thought I was going to die so instead of waiting to see if I recovered they fired me. Which sucked because I was no longer eligible for disability insurance through them. So now I'm jobless and broke with 4 kids and struggling every step of the way. I have tried to find another job, but one they find out why I was fired I don't get hired. I'm at a loss. I can't do anything for myself or my kids.

[PleaseHelp]

I am sorry you are going through such a difficult time. Are you able to see a therapist? Have you thought about applying for Social Security Disability? Sending thoughts and gentle hugs to you.

[disguise123]

that makes me so mad!
Poor u.
Ur work treated u in a disgusting manner.

[missbelle]

Yes, apply for social security disability and go to the welfare office and try to get medicaid for the kids and food stamps for all. SSD takes a while...maybe two years or more so that is the problem with that, but when you get it after two years you can get medicare if you have enough work quarters in. Life is tough, but try and utilize every thing in your community that is available inc. mental health facilities etc..Sometimes just going to one can lead you to many others inc. a food bank or two.

Are you eligible for unemployment benefits due to loss of job? If you don't like their decision you can appeal. I think everyone should appeal any decision that is not in their favor. Why not. You have to take care of yourself.

I don't know if you are a single parent but you should be getting child support as well and maybe alimony depending on your own circumstances. You can always go badk to court..

I am giving you general ideas since I really don't know much about you. I am glad you posted here. Hope you can get the help you deserve..

Feel free to private message me!! or whatever.....