im so sad

I get so sad and depressed. My boyfriend cant give me the support I need, he says he has a lot on his plate and when I am upset/insecure about the relationship he often gets hurt and then mad because he feels that I think he is not making effort. I try to explain to him I get down and its not his fault, sometimes it is his actions that make me sad, I overreact emotionally sometimes. I tell him always its not really him, its me. He still says he cant take it. I just want him to hug and hold me and he says he does but I want it all the time, and he does the best he can.
IDK what to do, I get down and I want to cry, i want him to hold me and tell me I am ok, he just cant do it. I feel if he loved me he would? Do i ask for too much?
I dont know how to handle my emotions anymore, how to feel better, what to do.

Are you seeing a therapist? Relationships are tough and when one is experiencing depression it just adds to the mix. I don't really have the answers, I do think you would benefit from talking to a professional about this. Hang in there, okay? and welcome to PC

I am not seeing anyone, I keep thinking I should. I work and goto school often, I don't really have the time or money. Maybe I just make excuses for myself? I think I am scared to go also, I'm not sure why.