[had enough]

well i think i can officially say this has been the worst week of my life, i think i have experienced every emotion known to man, and found a few new ones too. things were bad as it was but got a whole lot worse when i was unwell, thinking i had ate something dodgy, or it was due to anxiety on the blood tests and biopsy i was due to have to see what damage, if any i have done to my liver. but after talking to a friend something clicked and i done a test and found out i was pregnant, definiately not what i wanted or needed at this time. so going through all the different options i had more or less decided i couldnt go through with it, this left me very upset because i dont really agree with abortion to a degree, not a strong opinion but it still left me feeling upset. last night i was unwell again and early this morning i lost the baby. emotion ? i havent a clue, i have no idea how i feel now except guilty for even thinking for a minute that i couldnt go through with the pregnancy.

[nannypat]

I am sorry for your loss. It is still a loss even if you didn't know how you felt about it. Remember that your body has already gone through a lot of changes and your hormones are not at their normal levels. I imagine you could feel like you are on an emotional roller coaster. I hope you will be good to yourself this weekend and take some time to do things that make you feel good. You need to self soothe and make some time for you. You have had a tough week. Sending you safe {{{{hugs}}}}.