[PityPartyof1]

Great. Thank you interviewer for adding to my depression.

I've kind of been lagging, depression does that to me; it slows everything down and I went into my interview this morning lacking every necessary motor skill. In fact, I didn't even want to go in the first place but I knew I had to so I forced myself to get up.

This was the longest and hardest interview I think I've ever had. The "process" was disagreeable. I've never had to sit down and actually think about and put together a ten year employment history. Having to do this was a slap in my own face: I am NOT proud of my past.

As we sat at the roundtable, she warned me that she would have a series of questions that were routine. I didn't realize how much energy was needed to answer them and I fell flat on my face in the interview.

Not only did she pick apart every job I've ever had, she made me realize (again) how much I hate the person I've been and I walked away from the interview feeling like I failed yet another time. I can't even interview right.

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Originally Posted by PityPartyof1

Great. Thank you interviewer for adding to my depression.

I've kind of been lagging, depression does that to me; it slows everything down and I went into my interview this morning lacking every necessary motor skill. In fact, I didn't even want to go in the first place but I knew I had to so I forced myself to get up.

This was the longest and hardest interview I think I've ever had. The "process" was disagreeable. I've never had to sit down and actually think about and put together a ten year employment history. Having to do this was a slap in my own face: I am NOT proud of my past.

As we sat at the roundtable, she warned me that she would have a series of questions that were routine. I didn't realize how much energy was needed to answer them and I fell flat on my face in the interview.

Not only did she pick apart every job I've ever had, she made me realize (again) how much I hate the person I've been and I walked away from the interview feeling like I failed yet another time. I can't even interview right.

I'm guessing that you are being facetious about blaming the interviewer but it's hard to tell and your name makes it even harder.
Some interviewers do seem to have a sadistic streak. At 16 I had an interview with a state employment commission worker...this was before the agency was privatized. The woman was very confrontational. When she noted a one year gap in my job history she raised her voice and practically yelled out her questions: Where were you that year? Were you incarcerated? Were you institutionalized? We were in a crowded room and it was embarrassing and uncalled for. I told her I was hustling pool. It was fun and paid better than McDonalds. I left.
What you describe sounds like a very trying experience. I don't think you failed.Having to give an account of yourself when you have a past you aren't proud of can be excruciating. You may not feel as if you accomplished anything but you did. You went out and "faced the lion" in his (her) den.
I think you deserve congratulations and a pat on the back.