[coldwutlulz]

I feel like a child. A very hurt one. She feels betrayed. I feel betrayed. Mother was cheating and she had known that the man sexually abused girls, like what he did to me. Why, then did she stayed in that relationship for so long? The betrayed child part of me asks. I don't know. I have a hard time being alone with a male without thinking the want something sexual. I was feeling like a very happy child yesterday but now I feel like the very insecure one. I'm still scared the counselor might dismiss my concerns, but most of me feels numb to it. Gah! Was anyone else dimissed before?

I have felt slightly dismissed in the past, but, you need to keep addressing your concerns and make sure your counselor understands the problems and questions you talk of are the problems and questions bothering you the most. Kindly be persistant! Also, I sympathize with you. Keep posting if you have any more concerns on PC. We are all here for support. Happy posting!

[coldwutlulz]

I think I might have triggered myself somehow yesterday. May be because of those personal essays I have to write. Counselor wants to reschedual my appointment. Little anxious over that.

[coldwutlulz]

Originally Posted by coldwutlulz

I think I might have triggered myself somehow yesterday. May be because of those personal essays I have to write. Counselor wants to reschedual my appointment. Little anxious over that.

We won't be going to her earlier. Not enough gas. Anyhow, been writing a list of concerns. On third page. yay.

Keep thinking about those concerns, coldwutlulz. Also, try not to be triggered! Be aware of what triggers you so you can keep away from it/those things as best as possible. Triggers always seem to hinder personal progress...(at least for me!)

[coldwutlulz]

Felt very fuzzy yesterday. Everything was in a haze and I couldn't speak, much less walk right. I speant most of my time zoning out and staring at things. It was if I, ego, was sucked to the back, in a hole, and I had no choice but to watch what I, she, was doing. What the heck just happen. It happened before, but I usually had the most power and was somewhat aware of my enviro. I barely was in this one.