[happymistake]

I recently got out of a relationship that was very draining and where I always felt stressed, on edge, overstimulated, etc. And since breaking up I still can't shake these feelings.

It seems like even though I have more alone time now, I don't feel like I do. It's like I still can't get enough of it. And the alone time I do have doesn't make me feel anymore relaxed. I feel so overstimulated and bad constantly that it's hard to do anything, I just wish I could hide in my room and never talk to anyone again.

I know it's partially because I don't spend my time as wisely as I could, I maybe doom scroll or watch YouTube videos for hours instead of something that might make me more relaxed such as reading. But with all of the mess of emotions I have right now, it feels like an impossible task to do anything that takes more effort than pressing play on the next video. And the times I truly sit in silence I have such big and unpleasant thoughts and emotions come up that I just want to go back to these easy distractions immediately. And then when the day ends I get so frustrated at myself for not doing anything at all, I feel like I have so many hobbes I'd like to spend time on or actual productive things I keep procrastinating on and instead I am just accomplishing nothing day after day. It just doesn't make sense to me why I can't even get myself to do things that I feel like I want to do.

I feel like I'm just in a bad cycle that I don't know how to break out of and no matter what I do I feel awful and it's becoming unbearable.

Anyone else ever gone through something like this? How were you able to get unstuck and stick to better habits and start feeling at peace?

[CANDC]

Welcome to MSF @happymistake - I am sorry for the loss of your relationship. That is a really tough thing to happen.

There are not any easy answers but I went through that with a divorce. I was all in but then I was all out when it ended. I thought it would make me happy for the rest of my life but I just did not see the writing on the wall. There were multiple things I needed to do to eventually get out of the blues.

I had to reinvent myself. I tried different jobs and hobbies but nothing seem to make me joyful. I did walk a lot and that helped me get rid of that anxiety and I spent time in nature. That helped too.

My diet was really bad so I found that my mood swings were caused by a heavily carb diet with inadequate protein levels.

I finally went back to school after I got a little more stable and held a job to pay for schooling. I started to have a direction. I started to ask what did I do right in life not just what dis I do wrong.

It is hard to say exactly what made the difference. Adrienne yoga and 5 minute Tai Chi on Youtube helped.

Tell us more of what is happening if you care to.

CANDC

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