[White Rose]

Well, this is my story, in case you can help; it all started with that boy friend I had when I was in college, I was 19 and he was my first love. I truly, madly loved him, I thought I might do anything for him and he might as well, till I discover he was a big liar, lying about everything, I mean every little thing. I was heartbroken then, I went through a very bad depression for almost a year, he was stalking me all this time trying to work things out but I knew he was lying. I lost believe in love and trust in everyone. But, you know, just like movies, came my prince charming, he was really like a soul mate to me. We were friends for about 3 years till we discovered that we really like each other, we had lots of things in common. He was just perfect, I regain my trust and faith, got over my depression, and lived a dreamy happy life. That was actually before he let me down. One day, he decided that we should break up, he had some financial problems and he was depressed, suddenly, he turned into a completely different person. I mean, I have known him for years, I just know every little thing he does, every little thought he has, why would he suddenly change like that?

Anyway, that happened about 4 months ago, I can't help but say I lost my faith again but this time I don't think I could regain it. I don't believe in love anymore, and I have this stupid feeling that I am always left and dumped. Whenever I feel like some one likes me, I just run away, and try to avoid him cause deep inside me I know they would leave me anyway. I know it sounds sad but this is really how I feel, and I just can't help it, I have tried in every possible way to get over it but I can't.

[yuyevonx5]

I feel the same. People I love the most have abandoned me and ive abandoned people that love me. Love feels like a distant, naive notion or even a cruel joke about the past but I believe if I can be just a little brave then I have at least some chance to be happy. So whenever I feel that fear, which is damn near every time, I just try to be brave and open up a little or be more friendly to others because I know that I will regret not talking to them. I have zero self confidence so if I can do it I believe you can too