[brian1993]

I have just entered the mind of a man who was

once forced to face his demise, as he took his

very first stride into the final journey of his life,

the final destination into the darkest night;

Immediately he was awakened by the light of all

lights, a light so bright, and within this light

lied the Almighty Christ.

This is a journey that only those who have died,

and only those who have expired are destined to

ride.

I will now take a walk through space and time

and as I enter this mans mind I will listen closely

to the thoughts that were left behind.

I was going though hard times and I just couldn't

seem to find my way to the light, the darkness

had become to hard to fight; Faith was low, hopes

were lost, an all pride was gone.

I was fed up with all of the strife; I was just

about ready to give up on my life, and even with

all of my might I still could not find the light

because the darkness was just to hard to fight.

Day by day as my life would subside, the

will to survive was no longer inside; Hour after

hour as time went by and with the shadows still

have yet to leave my side, these dismal clouds

have fogged my mind.

How will I get by?

When will these gloomy shadows leave my side,

when will they subside?

Is this it for me? Will I forever live a clouded

life, with endless black and mysterious nights?

If I take my life, will there be light? Would I

forever be in paradise?

Tonight is the end, the last of the shadowy

nights, and the last of the shaded mind; I will

now take my first stride into the final journey of

my life, my final destination into the darkest

night; In hopes that I will see the light, the light

so bright, the light that within lies the Almighty

Christ.

[Callmebj]

Originally Posted by brian1993

I have just entered the mind of a man who was

once forced to face his demise, as he took his

very first stride into the final journey of his life,

the final destination into the darkest night;

Immediately he was awakened by the light of all

lights, a light so bright, and within this light

lied the Almighty Christ.

This is a journey that only those who have died,

and only those who have expired are destined to

ride.

I will now take a walk through space and time

and as I enter this mans mind I will listen closely

to the thoughts that were left behind.

I was going though hard times and I just couldn't

seem to find my way to the light, the darkness

had become to hard to fight; Faith was low, hopes

were lost, an all pride was gone.

I was fed up with all of the strife; I was just

about ready to give up on my life, and even with

all of my might I still could not find the light

because the darkness was just to hard to fight.

Day by day as my life would subside, the

will to survive was no longer inside; Hour after

hour as time went by and with the shadows still

have yet to leave my side, these dismal clouds

have fogged my mind.

How will I get by?

When will these gloomy shadows leave my side,

when will they subside?

Is this it for me? Will I forever live a clouded

life, with endless black and mysterious nights?

If I take my life, will there be light? Would I

forever be in paradise?

Tonight is the end, the last of the shadowy

nights, and the last of the shaded mind; I will

now take my first stride into the final journey of

my life, my final destination into the darkest

night; In hopes that I will see the light, the light

so bright, the light that within lies the Almighty

Christ.

brian are you alright? This is an incredibly sad post...I hope it's just part of sadness and creativity. hugs, bj

[dazeofdolphins]

Brian1993,
Your post is well-written and sadly, very disturbing. Are you preparing to kill yourself? Please get some immediate help. Call 911 for an ambulance that can take you to the hospital for evaluation. Communicate with a psychiatrist and a therapist. Accept help now. Please don't wait. People are concerned about you.
dazeofdolphins

[Purple Mist]

that was a wonderful poem brian, very deep in my opinion

[Open Eyes]

Brian, the answer is never to harm ourselves. Your prayers and belief should be for life and to learn from the bad that has crossed your path and in so doing use the wisdom to help others do the same. That is the message of the one you are holding to the highest in your poem here.

You must find his strength in life and share it with others. That is his teaching.

Open Eyes

[Jaer007ll]

that was a wonderful poem brian, very deep in my opinion

[brian1993]

It is just a poem. Nothing more.

[Callmebj]

Brian, You scared me for sure. I think the poems go into the creative center area.
I went on high anxiety when I read this. So glad you are okay. Great poem but
please be sure to post where nobody will think it's something else; okay?
Hugs, bj