[RunningEagleRuns]

I had the worst feelings ever today. It was horrible. It was very very horrible. So I dont know what to do. Its like I want to get it out but not be destructive. (my feelings)
It was like depression but worse.
What do you do when you want to die?

[RunningEagleRuns]

Suicide just isn't a option for me.

[gma45]

I hope you are feeling better, I get those feelings all the time, I just try to change my thoughts, get on the computer and come here! I really don't know I hope someone has some answers for us both. take care be strong!

[kindachaotic]

(((RunningeagleRuns))) So sorry you had such a bad day.

Anything specific or one of your worst days & can't explain it?

Wish I had some great words of wisdom.

Take care.

[neo1896]

i've been going thru some severe depression and not sure how to handle it

[shezbut]

I write about things that are bothering me. While tempted, I don't edit either! So, despite the feelings that my words evoke in me, I still write them.

I clean, bake, exercise, use guided imagery, color in a workbook; closely examine rocks, shells, flowers, leaves, etc.

Depending upon the severity of my depression, or other intense emotions, some of these tips don't always work for me. But there are lots of activities that you can do to get your mind off the intense emotions.

[Leed]

I have felt like dying MANY times, but like you, suicide is NOT an option for me. There were times where I just felt like laying down and dying. LOL No, it's not funny, but what are my chances of just laying down and dying? The odds aren't with me.

When this happens, I just do anything I can to get my mind off this. I might just do a crossword puzzle, or crochet, or do the dishes, or whatever. Anything is better than obsessing about dying! And almost always, in just a short time I've taken my mind off it. It always works.

I've suffered from depression since I was a child, and I've been on antidepressants for probably 35 years. So it's certainly nothing new to me. But I HATE to super-depressed states -- those times really knock my socks off. That's when I can tell that my medication isn't working!

I wish you the very best. If you keep having these episodes, PLEASE see your doctor. Perhaps he can refer you to a good therapist. God bless you and please take care of yourself. Hugs, Lee

[Open Eyes]

Well I do different things depending on how bad it is. I often come to PC and read the problems other people are sharing and that allows me to draw on my problem solving skills. I try not to sit in my misery to be honest. Sometimes I say I am having a bad day here and sometimes I just don't want to do anything to feed into it.

I try to watch light things on TV too, things that are upbeat, no violence or bad NEWS of any kind. I will go outside if it is a nice day and just either sit and look at nature or sometimes I blow leaves in my woods and clean up.

I HAVE learned that these days do pass and I simply tell myself that I just need a day off to pamper and be patient and let go of the problems I cannot solve for the day. And I also talk to my therapist about it.

((((Hugs))))
Open Eyes

[RunningEagleRuns]

i think it was severe depression. hope i never feel that way again.. It was like my soul was going through being twisted and torn apart...

[RunningEagleRuns]

you know in the movies when someone slips into madness and depression? Thats how my life looks. =]