Emotionally drained and draining

I have been really struggling with my emotions lately. I feel like I cannot control or manage my thoughts, feelings, moods, and behaviours in a very good way. I am pushing everyone in my life away from me and am isolating myself. It's as if I'm on the outside looking in at my own life. My own self destructive life. What can I do?

Good lord, I empathise with you so much! All the way through my life and my points of depression I have felt similarly. I have learned that the best thing to do for me is to take time to think about how I want my life to be and which people who are in it I want to keep. If you let yourself think about what each person gives you in the good moments you can see who you would do well to keep around. I then take the risk of telling the truth about how I feel to them. Mostly they will be compationate and want to support you, at the least they will understand why you have been distensing yourself from them.
With that out of the way I find that I feel less presured. I hope that this idea is useful to you.

All the best, Macha

I feel the same way sometimes, sometimes i even wonder why i feel like that, but i dnt honestly know at all. I wish i knew, some of my friends dont want me being like that, but its hard not too. I just try to find something that makes me happy, and sometimes it works.