[whosraf]

I made this blog just so I could vent.

I lost my best friend last year. We're not best friends anymore. You know why? She got a boyfriend. Thats exactly why. Go figure.

We stopped hanging out and it's only because she couldn't make the littlest amount of time for us. She only hungout with her ****** *** boyfriend.

It sucks. It sucks that she threw something away like that. 11 years of friendship. 11 YEARS. I don't think I'll ever meet somebody like her. I shared everything with her, literally. We rarely argued, whenever we did, it was for like 10 minutes. Now all of a sudden since we've stopped being friends, everything is going downhill. I have no body to talk to. I have 2 bestfriends, but I can't share everything with both of them. I feel like everything just sucks. I'm in tears writing this but oh well. I smoke weed way too much, my grades are falling apart. I'm partying too much. I need to get my **** together. I have anxiety problems and I'm extremely self conscious. Can't do anything about it. I feel like my mom thinks i'm just so stupid and she doesn't understand anything whenever I try to talk to her. Thanks for the support mom, thanks a lot. I feel like nothing works out with guys anymore either. All of my friends are in serious relationships and i'm just here like, oh. I get ****ed over all of the time and I'm just considered as a booty call to everyone. The point in life is to go through rough times and good times, yes I know that. I don't know why but I feel like this is just the end. Everything is going so downhill. I don't care if I've already said that. It's true. I'm lazy now, I can't go through with anything. School- I pull of the dgaf attitude and already failed my first math test. Great. Diet- horrible. I can't even stand working out now. I used to love working out. I can't even get my damn drivers permit. You know why? I'm lazy. This blog is my blog to explain to you how depressed and emotional I currently am, & whats exactly going on in my mind. This blog is to let everything out and start over. Monday is in 2 days. I'm writing everything down. What I'm gonna do, what I'm not gonna do. How I'm gonna improve. I'm gonna blog again next week and i'm gonna be one happy girl. Everything is gonna be better. If not. who ****ing cares. Because I'm one strong 16 year old girl who can get my **** together. I'm not ready to break down. I'm ready for a new me. Period. The End.

[Leed]

Honey you can't live you life for ONE person. You're better than that. Yes, you miss your friend, but this kind of stuff happens all the time when you're a teenager. Kids get boyfriends, and they get all starry-eyed and think the world stops and starts with this guy. Oh brother!! It's crap. When this guy dumps her, she'll come right back to you, crying about how awful it was. LOL
But in the meantime, don't mess up your life just cause she has a boyfriend! So what? You've GOT to keep your grades up, act like a decent girl, NOT a booty call, stop partying all the time cause it's gonna mess you up big time, (I've been there and it does!) Start working out again, and get your life together!!! Believe me, if you screw up your high school years, you'll regret it the rest of your life. PLEASE believe me. I know what I'm talking about!!! Your high school years should be FUN -- good cLEAN fun. Don't mess it up. It DOES affect you years later sweetie.
Get your drivers permit, but keep in mind that with that permit comes a LOT of responsibility! You have other peoples lives in your hands. So if you feel you're not mature enough, then don't get it.
I wish you the very best, my friend. You have a great life in front of you IF YOU PLAY IT RIGHT. Take care & God bless. Hugs, Lee

[barbarabp]

I lose my best friend too. I understand you. I know how bad it is.
Darling, don't waste your life because your friend is being stupid . She will realise that she was making a huge mistake.! If she doesn't, she's blind .
Stop partying, stop smoking and study harder. Trust your friends, trust yourself.
If you need someone to talk to, PM me and I'll be there for you.
I hope you get better xx

[rainbow121]

I understand how hard it is losing a friend, it also happened to me a few years ago now. I strongly believe that before you can start to deal with anything else you need to start with you. Once you have sorted yourself out, got back on track and have a clear, clean head, then you can start to think about what to do next. I agree with what was said above that once he breaks up with her, she will come back to you. Don't think that she has just forgotten you because no matter what you will always be in her heart.
I hope all the advice given to you helps and your problem gets sorted soon
xx