[indigo1015]

It's after midnight, and I need to be up in less than six hours, but I can't sleep. I'm having a lot of sleep issues these days, even though I seem tired enough to be able to sleep at night. I've been doing a set of intensive dance/fitness DVDs at home in my very limited free time, and I really enjoy them, but at this early stage, I am still tired and sore as a result of exercising. I'm also feeling really overwhelmed and depressed - I'm taking six courses this semester, and I'm pretty burdened down with homework and labs to write up, when I'm not at school. I feel ugly as well - I always wanted to be a Nicole Kidman type of girl, and instead I'm this short, fat ugly chick with brown hair and brown eyes. I mean, I look in the mirror and wonder how anyone can possibly find me attractive. I really feel like no one is able to relate to me - my two best friends are great, but one of them simply doesn't seem to understand how my situation is making me feel, and the other one is a guy with whom I've had a somewhat murky romantic past, so that makes it difficult to discuss certain things. I realize that, right now, I'm in pity mode, and I shouldn't be, since I am fortunate to be able to continue with my education and to have a place to live and everything else. I guess it's just that it's late, I'm a bit exhausted, and depression is never far away. Just let me vent tonight, and I'll feel better tomorrow... maybe.

[Emotionally Dead]

I am sorry you are going through such a rough time, I can relate. I know you feel like no one can relate, but I promise there are others that are going through similar things and will be there to offer support. Especially here. I often feel like no one is going through the same exact thing as me either, and that may be true, but I know there are people going through similar things. The same can be said for you. You are at a difficult time and it seems at a difficult age, and it's not uncommon for you to feel this way.

Believe me, you aren't ugly. You are beautiful. Remember that. You may not like yourself, or how you look, but I promise there are people that will love you for who you are. You'll find them. Not everyone wants someone who is completely happy with their life, great looking with a great body, and conceited. You'll see that in life eventually. I don't have much more to add, just to give my support and say "I hear ya". Take care.

[perseverance11]

I know what sleep issues are and I wish you a good night.
For the depression question, if you have any doubt on that, consult.
You are a beautiful person. Each person has his qualities, and you too have that. Sorry to hear that you are in a rough time.

Just tell you that you have your place in the world and that you have qualities.

I wish you a good night of sleep and the best of success.