[Jan1212]

I'm always afraid I'm going to fail. This is my only opportunity that I've had my whole life. This will make me very happy, I need to pass class. Here's what happened; I applied and out of hundreds, I got an acceptance letter, I was at a point in my life where I was giving up but this gave me some a reason to hope. There's a high chance of failing and they really own me. It's so stressful, this is my key to moving out, be independent. From where I once was, everybody is so proud of me... but what if I fail? I lose everything. I could fail, one wrong move I could potentially harm a patient and that means I fail.

It's stupid to say but I'm scared to participate in class and say the wrong thing. It's a small class everybody knows each other, competitive cliques I hate it, people can be nasty. In this profession I'd have to be confident, and they know I'm not. Attitude is a big deal, and I don't have that. How can I be a positive, confident, happy , relaxed if anything can fail me any day. I'm scared for my friends who may fail, and who have already failed, they really want wean you out. how can I smile in that class, how can I be relaxed if I have anxiety, I've got to be alert but I'm drained of my energy, it is like being a contestant in a competition reality tv show.

it's really depressing

[gma45]

Try to think positive, you will not know unless you try!

[Anika.]

Jan,

I feel that way a lot too. I watched this show the other night on TED Talk that I felt helped ... http://blog.ted.com/2012/10/01/10-ex...ur-confidence/

She talks about power posing, and how even when we do power poses it boots our confidence, same as when we make ourselves small physically.. and we feel small. She also talks a lot about stuff you just addressed in your post about your class, actually quite similar. I think you would relate to her a lot. Give it a watch and see what you think. There is a lot of info and help you can find about this kind of thing. I am trying to work on it myself right now too.

My bf made me practice power poses at the mall the other day, and I was feeling pretty down. Ya I felt really silly, but he made me take up a lot of space with my body and act confidant, but you know, I did feel better and more confidant after, funny how something so simple can work. Not only that it is how others see you too, and sometimes like in your class it does matter. So maybe this could help.

Good luck!

[Rose3]

How about - go in and be matter-of-fact.