[indigo1015]

My world seems to be falling around me... I am sick all the time these days, either with terrible headaches or with stomach pains. I took a physical chemistry exam this morning, and I am 100% certain I failed it. This is not entirely my fault - the professor has not helped us to understand the material, the textbook is useless, and there are no tutors at my school or online resources that can help. I have studied alone, studied with people, tried to learn the concepts, but at the end of the day, I will be more than happy if I get a C- in the class. Forget about a passing grade for the exam. I am feeling extremely tired and depressed (this afternoon, I slept in the student center for about an hour, without actually realizing that I had fallen asleep). I will carry on with the semester, but no way will I continue onto next semester. I have a degree already from another college, I really feel I need to start my life somewhere else using that degree. My parents have tried to help me with all this, but frankly, I need to get out of this situation. I have thought and thought about it, and have asked lots of people for their opinions - my doctor, my therapist, my priest. They all say the same thing - this situation seems to be doing me more harm than good. I've emailed a relative in Colorado, who is willing to discuss job opportunities in the area with me. I am very sad and frightened in a sense, because I have been on this path for so long, and now, I have no idea what I will do next. However, I can't keep up like this. I am honestly trying to do what is in my best interest here, and that seems to be to leave at the end of the year for greener pastures. Please don't judge me too harshly - I usually don't believe in quitting, but I am really suffering here. And, as I said, I have a perfectly solid degree already, and there are alternatives. I would rather quit this than continue and have a nervous breakdown somewhere along the road (which is looking more and more probable). What I really want is to enjoy my life and to regain my independence... and I think that, the sooner I start doing that, the better off I'll be.

[Leed]

Dearheart, no one is going to judge you! I think it's admirable that you tried to go further, but I agree that at this poiint it would be better for you to just quit and use your present degree and find a job somewhere! It's time to start your life!

You've worked hard for a long time, and you've earned your independence -- now it's time to enjoy life. Perhaps moving to Colorado sounds excitiing, and what a beautiful part of the country! I hope you find a profitable job there!.

I do detect quite a lot of depression in your post, and I feel you should address this. How about talkiing to your doctor and having him refer you to a good therapist? The therapist can help you cope with the depression and get to the core of what is actually causing this depression. This is important if you are going to rid yourself of depression so it will not keep torturing your -- which is certainly can. So please call your doctor for a referral. You won't regret it. God bless and please take care. And check in with us from time to time and let us know how yo're doing, ok? Hugs, Lee