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Nov 21, 2012, 12:08 PM
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It's November, and I am having a horrible month both financially and emotionally, what a surprise. Whenever this month comes around, I have to wonder why it is I even wake up in the morning, because nothing does improve; it is, unfortunately, an endless cycle of hope and despair, although more despair than hope.
Here I am again on PC crying, wondering why it is that 'crying' is not an option on the 'My Mood' feature, since that is what I spend a significant amount of time doing anyhow  . Because I now have a negative bank account balance, I have now doubled the bills I would normally have to afford next month from NFS fees, and combine this with chronic, long-term loneliness, everyone will have to excuse my lack of optimism about the future. When people talk to me about hope and the future, it can sound like to me they're saying, "Don't worry, you will win $50 million in Lotto Max one day," because what they predict my future to be seems so absurd to me that I feel I have a better chance at winning a load of cash than their predictions coming true. It's too bad I ran out of that old medication of mine; now would be the perfect time to overdose on it like I used to do to remain passed out for as long as possible. Closest thing to death that I can experience . Who'd have thought that after my dad killed himself I'd spend the next several years totally cut off from the rest of the world, unemployed, fail in school, and living in and out of poverty. Too stupid for school; too broke meet descent women, and what women I do meet don't like me anyway; too screwed up to hold down stable employment. Really living life to its fullest… |
 carrie_ann, enchanted, gma45, IowaFarmGal, optimize990h
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#2
Nov 21, 2012, 04:29 PM
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I wish there were some magic words that would help or maybe something to give you a fresh start without the memories. Keep trying, it has to get better than this!
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Nov 21, 2012, 04:40 PM
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The purpose of life is not to be happy. It is to be useful, to be honorable, to be compassionate, to have it make some difference that you have lived and lived well. anonymous |
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Nov 21, 2012, 04:58 PM
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Sending hugs and positive vibes your way! Things HAVE to get better!
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Nov 29, 2012, 09:32 PM
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im so sorry things are so bad for you we are always here for you to help what ever way we can, i realy hope things get better for you
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