[onthemove24]

Earlier today I was happier than I have been in a very long time. I felt like I finally knew what I wanted, where I was going, how I would get there, and as if nothing could stop me. Now I don't feel anything...except tired...how did I go from feeling happy and social and confident to anxious and withdrawn in the course of a few hours...why can't I hold on to these good feelings...why are they here and then just never last through the day...it makes me not want to try and live a good life sometimes...because happiness doesn't even last through the day for me...it's exhausting to go from excited for life and all the opportunities it holds to feeling exhausted and apathetic...and it makes me more anxious when I do feel happy, because I'm so worried it won't last....how do I make it last...I haven't been in a serious committed relationship in forever because feelings for someone don't last for me either...friendships even I can't seem to keep a solid hold on to...it's like every feeling I have is there for a second and then flies off again. Then it'll come back for a little while, and then fly away again...I go from feeling whole to empty to whole to empty over and over and over...what do I do..

[krosis]

The same kind of thing happens to me, but not quite so suddenly. It takes a few days for me to come down like that and it takes even longer for me to get back up again. I also have problems with all types of relationships. Whenever I do come down, after the initial shock and long rumination of how I got there, I try to look forward to the time when I will be up again. Because if all went right, what would we have to look forward to? I have no idea how to make it last, but I imagine that when you are where you're supposed to be, that happiness will be easier to hang on to.

[SocioJayOlogy]

Emotions are profound...perhaps clinical depression?