[Kamidogu]

I've termed 'Gwabasfaar' as a new word to describe when you feel like you being led on in what you think is a blooming relationship. I've been trying to take this girl out for some time now, and every single time she puts it off; she says she has work but I've been giving her the benefit of the doubt.

Away from that (I'll admit the perceived rejection stings), I spent a large amount of the time since I met her thinking "don't become overly attached, if she turns you down you'll feel crushed". Now, I found out someone else crushed me.

Myself.

I told myself that if she pushed a date back and seemed like she wasn't making the attempt to stay connected-- or friends at least-- then I'd "cut my losses" and move on. When she did those things, as I was talking to her, being sweet, trying to stay involved while, on the inside, I felt like this little axe murderer was running around trying to chop me up. I didn't feel so much like she was rejecting me outright or being snobbish or mean to me. I think most of the pain comes from myself: forcing myself to let go, to cut ties, when I felt like we might have actually been making a connection.

[Leed]

I don't think you did it. I think she did. Why would she keep pushing the dates back over and over again? Either she was afraid, or she was a fake. One of the two.

Perhaps she described herself to you one way, and she's exactly the other. She doesn't want you to see her. Maybe she told you she was a svelte, gorgeous girl when in truth she's a fat, unattractive girl. Who knows? LOL Or perhaps she's even married! Or maybe it's a guy! LOL

You know, all kinds of weird things go on, on the internet. You just never know. Horrid, nasty jokes are played. And people make themselves out to be one way, when they're exactly another.

It wasn't you. It was her. I wouldn't feel badly about this. You just never know what goes on out there. God bless. Hugs, Lee