[Bamboo_RedPanda]

.....even though you know there are people there willing to listen to you?

I feel this way quite often, but I just push it aside. When I want to talk to someone, anyone really, to open myself up I just feel like I'd be a nuisance or burden to them, so I shy away from it. I want someone to talk to, but I'm afraid of how they'd react. Afraid they'd be annoyed or call me selfish and self-centered, or worse, not know what to say in general, making me feel like it was all just a waste of their time. So I push it away, listen to music and just try to forget about how I feel, hoping the things I want to say and express will go away.

I feel the exact same way. Music is my escape as well.
Good luck <3

i often feel this way as well.

like even though their are loads of people around you, you just don't fit in... yeah... it sucks.

[bastetsha]

I often feel this way. Sometimes, with my illness, the people that I should know look like strangers so I feel even more alone. I also use music, as well as books, to escape.

[Thunder Bow]

This is offten due to cultural Imprinting: "Shut Up and Just Do Your Job" or "You Are Not Being Paid To Think". It is hard to get over those early imprints.

Use this forum to start expressing yourself. It will make a good start. Also try expressing your self with art of music and post it online to see what others have to say about it. There you can read rejections or support with the insulation of the computer.

Then work on speeking up to others in real life. Offten our fears are just make belive senerios.

[layla11]

Hi and yes, I know how you feel. Posting and reading on the site helps me alot.

[FadedLight28]

I feel the same way too... People are so used to me being the one to hold it all together, to handle everything, the go -getter, the happy go lucky, always smiling but on the inside im dying with a turmoil of emotions and if I express them, they wont know how to deal with it or take it because Im so used to dealing with their problems their emotions... yeah people like us feel alone... surrounded by people but alone...glad people on here understand.

[optimize990h]

Sometimes I do feel alone and the only way to get relief to find what does work that day. Sometimes I practice eye exercises, physical exercise, watching DVDs, and meditation. If appropriate, I do try to find some humor to share with whoever has the time, but that's in real life situations. Or I come to PC to learn and understand more about myself and others.

[JLarissaDragon]

I feel cut off and alone a lot. Partly because I have almost no close family, and partly because I am often surrounded by egotistical people. I do journal a lot and it helps me to stay in touch with my feelings

[Benignity]

I am a very open and honest person, and I frequently talk about my problems with people that I know. I don't save everything for my counsellor. I'll talk with the people that I trust and receive their feedback, simply because that's the only way that I can see my current problem from a different perspective. If you keep everything bottled up, you might stay stuck on the same issue for more time than necessary.

I used to feel like a burden or a nuisance when I would talk to people about my issues, but I've let that go for the most part. I've been in too many situations where I've struggled with myself on the same problem for an entire week, and then talked to someone for five minutes and found a solution...

“The most fatal thing a man can do is try to stand alone.”
– Carson McCullers, The Heart is a Lonely Hunter

Everyone needs someone to vent to, and a half hour conversation with someone isn't really being a burden or nuisance :P

[yellowted]

I often feel alone, i know people are around and are friends, but i still feel unable to open up to them about how i feel or about what bothers me. I am great at listening and helping others to sort out their problems, but when it comes to sorting out my own i am on my own! i think it comes from years of having to keep my feelings bottled up, not say anything to anyone about things that were going on at home that directly affected me and yet having to listen with contempt to my mother relive everything that upset her wheter i wanted to or not.

I found writing down the things which were bothering me a great help as i could then work through them in a logical way with a clear mind, though still do usually keep my worries to myself. after all what will be will be regardless of what i do or say.

i do too but i feel less alone since i've been here.

I feel like they don't take me seriously, that I'm just imaging it, that it's wrong to feel this way; that their are other more legitimate problems that need addressing.

[Thunder Bow]

If other family members including your Mother, were critical of you, then it is natural not to share your feelings. Just remember other people are not your Mother/Parents.

[hiddeng3nius]

I feel like this all.the.time. It's a combination of people just not getting what I'm going through, belittling what I'm going through, or are absolutely helpless. The worse part about being alone is knowing that you aren't alone in the world but when you really need someone in person to be there for you, you don't have anyone.

But for whatever it's worth, we're here.

[Puffyprue]

i feel alone all the times and no one understand from my point of view...well i dont really have "real friends" atm and my family never been there, people only comes to me whenever they need something or they only like the happy side of me when iam at the bottom no one there .. thats really sad but thats my life like it or not.

iam sorry that you have to feel this way , hope things get better for you

[Needin Help]

Originally Posted by Bamboo_RedPanda

.....even though you know there are people there willing to listen to you?

I feel this way quite often, but I just push it aside. When I want to talk to someone, anyone really, to open myself up I just feel like I'd be a nuisance or burden to them, so I shy away from it. I want someone to talk to, but I'm afraid of how they'd react. Afraid they'd be annoyed or call me selfish and self-centered, or worse, not know what to say in general, making me feel like it was all just a waste of their time. So I push it away, listen to music and just try to forget about how I feel, hoping the things I want to say and express will go away.

I feel the same way, although I only have two people I feel would listen. I don't want to be that friend that is always such a downer, and one of those two people is going through her own rough time right now. I'm sure the professionals would say that we shouldn't let the "what if's" get in our way of seek the help we need, so that's what I'll say to you.

[Doxie mom]

I am really feeling this way lately. I am not stable on a med because we a transitioning to a new one. I have problems with rage and acting out violently at times. I am so ashamed of my behavior. I don't even recognize that side of me it just explodes out of nowhere after I just feel so sad and ashamed. My husband is very supportive but I had a violent outburst last night and I actually saw fear in his eyes.

[Scotty204]

I can relate as well, I am too embarassed to talk to family and friends so I usually turn to music or video games as a way to escape.