[Job19]

It seems that ever since I was diagnosed bipolar 1 almost 2 years ago I have not felt emotions such as sadness( to the point of crying) except in times of extreme frustration. Agitation seems to be the main emotion I have anymore. I have experience through counseling and other life events that have blessed me with a greater knowlege of myself. Don't really know where I was going with this, but it has been something I have noticed recently.

[Gently1]

hello Job19,

I have depression and at one long period, I was emotionless.
A great friend, asked me how I felt and my answer was 'flat'.
She even asked if I had emotions.
I could remember emotions, interests and caring but it was like it was another brain a detached memory.
My friend went on to share her 'flat' emotionless time with me.

She was high up on a plateau, and looking down in different directions at the landscape and each view had different possibilities.
When the time was right she found her way off the flat plateau.

I used the imagery of this perspective and found the flatness is a time to explore options and consider different perspectives/paths, not to be hurried as it can not be forced and accepting this was my life at this time.
(two years) later I began to feel emotions again. Sometime I miss the emotionless times. My psychologist calls this avoidance.

I am also blessed with great friends, therapist and Pdoc. And my journey continues.
I wish you well

G

[Thunder Bow]

Anger agitation is an easy emotion to show and the risks are few. The emotions involving the Heart are the Risky ones!

[2_b_free]

I don't have any emotions to speak of, no anger, crying, or frustration. My thinking is very analytical, this is the issue, this is what I need to fix it. Talk therapy is lost on me, I report my progress.

What helps me is I know how important it is to have a social life, I work very hard to go places with my friends and chat online. Not having strong emotions frees me to practice kindness and compassion.