[iffylivy]

Yesterday i was at work and there was this dad who only saw their child once a month and yesterday was the child's birthday. He was in serious need to make everything happen perfectly for his son. And the wife plus new husband or boyfriend was bringing the son so that they can celebrate, but i thought they were going to all have dinner together. i thought they were the lucky family to still be close and be together in those need to be moments. But it wasn't like that they would sit in separate tables and the dad would have quality time with the son. I felt this hear wrenching feeling and like i was about to burst out tearing at work. I started thinking about what happened when it was my birthday when i was about his age ( more or less) and my dad came to my house for my birthday party, but he left because he had to go grab someone who was coming to the party (my cuz or neighbour friend) then the guests arrived but my dad wasn't there. Until the end of the party when everyone had to leave he picked them up and left. I didn't even see him when he came back too. (i think, if i remember clearly) Later on did i find out that mg step dad didn't want him in the house, so he stayed at my grandmas house until it was over. So I'm here at work trying not to cry. But its been about 17 or so years since my parents split, but why would all of this stuff still bother me, even when i see these families all together. Shouldn't i have coped with all of this already? Am i always going to be emotional about this family stuff.

[optimize990h]

Hello iffy live! it seems like a flashback memory of a painful experience.

I'm not a psychiatric professional. But sometimes these traumatic events are not processed properly until a therapist has worked on it. You have self awareness that is good, but a therapist could best answer your question.

[iffylivy]

haha therapy 17 or so later. interesting.