Not being grateful

I have had people who have tried to reach out to me when I need help, but for some reason,whenever I fall back into my old state of mind, when I feel lonely, I start to forget all the nice deeds that people have performed for me and then I start blaming everybody else for not being caring enough. I also don't seem to understand others like when they're busy and tehy can't always respond to my posts so then i question myself, going,"What did I do?" It's always been like that, and numerous times I have cried over this and now I realize it's just silly.

It's not silly. It's a feeling you had. You can work on changing how you experience that feeling, and how you act on it, but that takes hard work! You'll get there.

(((Hugs)))

That may be an epiphany. At the very least it is an insight.

It has taken me a long time to get where I am now so I definitely do not expect a teenager to reach that point, but... being grateful is one of the very best ways to reach happiness. Cultivating gratefulness is extremely important.

Perhaps you are trying a bit too hard to be grateful, I mean if you're really feeling down the last thing you need to do is beat yourself up over not being 'grateful' enough.......you're feeling bad, it's hard to see the light so its understandable if you're not feeling that terribly thankful for everything. When you're in the depths of depression a few positives here and there doesn't really do much to decrease it.

You probably are grateful for the nice deeds people do its just hard to focus on all that when depression hits.

This may not make much sense but maybe its more that you aren't caring about yourself enough so it feels like no one in general does just a thought since sometimes I know i get feeling like that...then its hard not to feed it by believing no one should care and stuff like that. I am not sure of an exact solution but I have similar issues. so far I have kind of learned to think things through a bit before I go accusing others of not caring when they aren't intentionally ignoring me or anything...but I still can't always convince myself that's not going on.

yeah you know exactly how it feels.

I feel the same way. If people don't respond to a text or a message right away I feel like I said or did something wrong.