I live with two overbearing parents who just won't shut up about anything. i feel like i'm ready to defy all authority because they both get me mad all the time. my father loves to repeat stuff over and over. he sounds like an idiot. my mother does the same too and sometimes she asks things taht should not be asked. one time when we were at frys, my dad asked me if the camera we were purchasing was new. i was like of course, why the hell would they sell secondhand cameras? that's ridiculous. then i got impatient and started to argue with my dad and everybody else there started staring at us. oh man. i'm the worst child ever. oh my gosh.
i feel like jumping out the window or moving out or becoming robotic. that's why i've been posting things about being robotic. no feelings, not at all. i will feelings and i want it that way. she yells at me all the time. nobody in the neighborhood yells but my mother. cars go by and hear us arguing. my goodness. nobody has ever disobeyed their parents like that. have you got any kids who have been hard to deal with? my goodness, i'm never getting married.

[optimize990h]

heyitsme7, it is weird how some people who marry their spouses who are just like their father or mother.

It is pretty difficult in the situation you describe. But just imagine if you are 50 and your parents are 70 or 80 and they still treat like you are 5 years old?

I am the only one who can tolerate my mother. My bother and sister could not tolerate it at all. I get a rough idea of what you are talking about.

You are an intelligent and talented guy that gets frustrated at times because of bad gene pool influences. You gotten get patience without the ulcers.

at least they don't get angry all of a sudden and then start talking back. i mean, seriously, back then who could do that?

it's just that what they don't get is, i'm not a 5 year old anymore but to look back at it, i may be one because i can't take care of myself, i can't wash my clothes, i can't do the dishes, i mean i can but i'm just lazy and then my mother complains about how she does not get enough help from my father and i and seriously nobody yells the loudest except her and i have friends whose mothers happen to be louder than dads. oh my gosh. i hate this. i simply cannot stand this. is this what marriage is like? i hate it hate it hate it. i just want an escape from my problems... all of them and a solution.

i dont like marriage not because i dont want kids, but because i hate it when people annoy me. if i have kids, i may have to suffer the things my mother did and i don't want that. it seems like a cycle. i'm done; i'm done with this. i don't want to deal with this. i hate my life. someone's gotta give me solace.

[Thunder Bow]

Seems to me you and your behavior are Mirroring you Mother and Father in every detail. You are in a time old process with your parents, that you been into from birth. Time for you to become aware of this, and be the Warrior that you are.

got my answer. thanks.

[Open Eyes]

"dad asked me if the camera we were purchasing was new." quote heyitsme7

You "do" understand that what he was asking here was "misunderstood" by you?

Ofcourse he knew the camera was new and unused. What he was really asking here about this camera was is it the "latest technology"? In other words, new technology and in new Iphone model coming out, or "new television" on the market.

I think that you are experiencing a generation gap situation here. I had the same situation myself with "my" parents, it's actually pretty normal.

[ECHOES]

geez, he just asked a question for pete's sake. yes, some places do sell refurbished cameras.

you don't seem to get it that it isn't what others do that is the issue.
it is your response and irrational anger and judgment.

moving out won't change that.

yeah but there are many questions that he's asked that i find so retarded. i dont want to feel this way but i do. i mean, i sometimes make the same mistakes as they do unintentionally. it's weird, but it happens.

[Meisjes]

my ex repeats himself constantly - he has a mental illness and didn't want help (repeating is only a small part of it). One day my son and I were talking - the son that is most like his dad. He started putting him down and I said, "you know he is still your dad, I'm not trying to critisize him." Son said, "you know mom, I couldn't live with him for more than 24 hours either." But he still loves his dad." He was just being realistic.

The other son simply doesn't engage in conversation with his dad when it gets real irritating. He doesn't know what to say without getting frustrated and he's the calmest person I've ever met. He's able to let most people just be themselves.

Its ok. We learn to live with all our own imperfections as well as everyone elses. Or we find a way to separate ourselves from the ones that we can't live with. Life.

oh brother. can you imagine having to listen to them talk on and on and on? i wonder how many people actually do that.

[ECHOES]

Originally Posted by heyitsme7

yeah but there are many questions that he's asked that i find so retarded. i dont want to feel this way but i do. i mean, i sometimes make the same mistakes as they do unintentionally. it's weird, but it happens.

That is because you judge. every. single. thing.
And gosh, at your age parents are really just about the stupidest people on the planet, I do get that.

i get a lot of ANTs as well.

does thought stopping actually work for automatic negative thoughts?

i hear songs by florence and the machine. one of them keeps recurring because i listened to it when i was in a gloomy state of mind. the most audible and repetitive lyrics are i'll cut your little heart out cuhs you made me cry...you made me cry....i say hey girl with one eye get your little fingers out of my pie... i say hey... girl with one eye, i'll cut your little heart out cuhs you made me cry...she's lucky that i don't slip her a smile, now she sleeps with one eye open...cuhs that's the price she'll pay.

Almost everything you say is mean and negative. Have you noticed that?

not everything i say is mean and negative.

you are just misinterpreting things, courtney.

ALMOST everything. But okay... sorry dude.

Originally Posted by Open Eyes

"dad asked me if the camera we were purchasing was new." quote heyitsme7

You "do" understand that what he was asking here was "misunderstood" by you?

Ofcourse he knew the camera was new and unused. What he was really asking here about this camera was is it the "latest technology"? In other words, new technology and in new Iphone model coming out, or "new television" on the market.

I think that you are experiencing a generation gap situation here. I had the same situation myself with "my" parents, it's actually pretty normal.

yeah but the lady who was talking to us was starting to get annoyed because she was rolling her eyes at us.

[ECHOES]

Originally Posted by heyitsme7

i get a lot of ANTs as well.

nobody's keeping score.

you aren't getting what you want in life and the place to look is within.

Originally Posted by Court_Knee

ALMOST everything. But okay... sorry dude.

those are the lyrics.

seriously as soon as i start reading the lines over and over, i hear them in my head again. honestly, when will that toxic song disappear from my mind? what's the best thing to do to forget about the past?

I don't even know what you're talking about lol -- sorry! Can you explain it to me a little differently? I can be pretty stupid sometimes.