A... Different kind of emotion

Before I start, I just want to point out that I'm NOT suicidal.

I know what I deserve, which is death. But then, how will that do any good? You can't resurrect the dead, and one more death won't pay for anything. Especially not six million people gone.

For those of you not on the schizoaffective forum, you're probably wondering why I'm feeling this way and what I'm talking about. See, I believe that I'm the reincarnated Dr. Josef Mengele sent to redeem my past, but it still sucks being him, even with good intentions. All this guilt, and for what? Who gains from it?

Sometimes I still have trouble with my old thought process and I have to remind myself that I'm better than that. I just hate having to deal with all this. I wish I could take back the past, me and everyone else in the world.

Okay, I'm done whining. Basically, I feel like a person who got morals just when it was too late. Any advice?

Value yourself for how you feel now. You can't change the past. Of course, regret is appropriate for it, but try to learn and do better, becoming a decent person.