[gon3withth3wend]

I feel like all of my posts are the same, ugh, sorry! But please listen because I feel really horrible and I'm so mentally tired of myself.

In short, I'm feeling pretty low now. Today, it's my second wave of very low mood. The first was around noon, and that lasted about three hours. In that time I was feeling irritable, and was apparently visibly upset because EVERYONE was asking me if I was in emotional pain. Nobody ever asks me that. I can't explain how I was feeling. I punched a girl in class and then I went to the bathroom and I cried. This is really odd behavior for me, I don't remember going to the bathroom to cry at school this year. Everyone was asking me what was wrong and I DON'T KNOW nothing has happened to make me upset. I didn't even get in trouble for punching the girl, I'm not seen as that kind of person at school.

I felt fine before then, and for a couple hours after. Now I'm back to feeling really sad and I just want to lay in bed and cry and sleep and not leave my bed. And my mom gets upset because I just can't mentally handle any conversation she's trying to have with me.

I'm getting old for this. The other day my mom casually mentions that when I go to college I can't throw things at people or threaten to kill them. I felt so bad she even had to mention that.

My period just ended, and I'm almost 18 and I'm going to college and everyone says it must be my age and hormones, and people I know tell me to control myself, and it's normal, and people here say talk to a school counselor, which I just don't want to do at all, and I'm pretty sure I'm done with puberty because I've had monthly periods for 7 years, so idk how much my hormones play in and I'm just so done. I don't even know why I feel crappy and it isn't even consistent. Lately I'll feel very low for hours at a time. When I feel my worst I normally just sleep because I can't handle being awake.

I'm sorry that your' feeling low but i'm relieved that you're a girl as well and therefore it is somewhat acceptable to punch a girl.

[growlycat]

I don't miss being 18. There is a lot of pressure to figure out your life in a hurry.

Sorry if this is redundant to what you've read, but talking to the right counselor can be a huge relief. (I wouldn't recommend school counselors though) Lots of people feel a certain shame in doing so, but it's actually a brave act to get help. Parents tend to take it personally when you seek help, ofte blaming themselves but they come around in time. It's hard not to worry what others think, but the payoff is huge.

Hope things get better for you!

[Leed]

Bless your heart. You're going thru the toughest time emotionally than you'll ever go through in your life. The teen years (yes, even eighteen) are the WORST years you'll ever spend.

My teens were horrible -- I would never go back there for all the money on earth. Our bodies are changing so rapidly, and the chemicals in our brain are also doing the same thing! These chemicals are TRYING to level themselves out to an "even keel" to where we can act "normally" (whatever that is) and FEEL emotionally safe and secure. Trouble is, during the teen years, we don't feel like that. Nothing "works right." Everything is out of whack! The body seems to be fighting itself, trying to grow up! It's AWFUL.

Then, lo and behold, we get into our twenties and things DO level out and all of a sudden we find we're an adult -- and all that chaos is gone!

The trouble is, some young people in their teens DO need therapy and you might be one of them. And the OTHER trouble is --- parents. A lot of parents think that if the teen comes to them and asks them if they can go to therapy, the parents think it's just for "attention." Well, it's NOT. I wish parents would WAKE UP and LISTEN to their kids!!! I had my 15 yr old (at the time) granddaughter living with me for a time, and I noticed she was depressed, and HAD been -- so I took her fanny to a therapist! Her parents had split up, and obviously she was effected! She's 17 now, and STILL in therapy so she DOES have issues.

Talk to your parents -- calmly and nicely. Ask them to please make an appointment for you with a therapist - or have your doctor refer you to one. Explain to them that you're extremely depressed, irritable, etc. Make SURE they know this is NOT any plea for attention! I hope they'll make the call for you.

God bless and let us know what happens. Hugs, Lee

[winter4me]

Originally Posted by gon3withth3wend

I feel like all of my posts are the same, ugh, sorry! But please listen because I feel really horrible and I'm so mentally tired of myself.

In short, I'm feeling pretty low now. Today, it's my second wave of very low mood. The first was around noon, and that lasted about three hours. In that time I was feeling irritable, and was apparently visibly upset because EVERYONE was asking me if I was in emotional pain. Nobody ever asks me that. I can't explain how I was feeling. I punched a girl in class and then I went to the bathroom and I cried. This is really odd behavior for me, I don't remember going to the bathroom to cry at school this year. Everyone was asking me what was wrong and I DON'T KNOW nothing has happened to make me upset. I didn't even get in trouble for punching the girl, I'm not seen as that kind of person at school.

I felt fine before then, and for a couple hours after. Now I'm back to feeling really sad and I just want to lay in bed and cry and sleep and not leave my bed. And my mom gets upset because I just can't mentally handle any conversation she's trying to have with me.

I'm getting old for this. The other day my mom casually mentions that when I go to college I can't throw things at people or threaten to kill them. I felt so bad she even had to mention that.

My period just ended, and I'm almost 18 and I'm going to college and everyone says it must be my age and hormones, and people I know tell me to control myself, and it's normal, and people here say talk to a school counselor, which I just don't want to do at all, and I'm pretty sure I'm done with puberty because I've had monthly periods for 7 years, so idk how much my hormones play in and I'm just so done. I don't even know why I feel crappy and it isn't even consistent. Lately I'll feel very low for hours at a time. When I feel my worst I normally just sleep because I can't handle being awake.

Something is troubling you deeply and you need to get yourself help, start with your PCP if you have one, or a therapist, sounds like you lose control at times, it is possible you may need the help of either a mood stabilizer or, before that to learn some effective techniques/practices for calming. It is not ok to punch anyone. And it won't change all by itself......clearly, there are times you are out of control, and cannot control yourself---telling you to do so will not help. This is more than hormones, something is going on inside---
talk to someone, don't wait, you feel miserable enough and it is not likely to get better without some intervention. You might be able to deal with some of it with a self-challenging sport like running, hiking, biking, or group sports that are for fun at a Y or town recreation dept. I always recommend yoga for its physical and mental exercise...(and need to do this kind of thing myself)
I hope you apologized to the girl. I think you'd feel a tad better if you did.

[sabby]

I'm so sorry you are struggling with the feelings you are having right now. It's no fun, I can so relate!

One thing that may interest you is the possibility that what you are experiencing may be totally related to your period. PMS or PMDD may be what is happening.

You may find this site interesting and something you may want to talk to your doctor about. Premenstrual Syndrome (PMS) Symptoms: Physical and Emotional

There are times when our issues are more related to our physical health than it being a mental health issue. I think it's important to always rule out a physical health reason first. This may be a really good place for you to start.

Wishing you well!

Sorry, I don't agree with the idea that it's somewhat acceptable to punch a girl. Punching anybody is unacceptable if for no other reason than the fact that what we do to others
we also do to ourselves.

You really need some help with understanding what causes you to have such anger that
you will physically attack someone. We just do don't that in civilized society. There
are more effective ways of getting anger out, and you could help your feeling tone
very much if you were shown how to do that.

Please see a psychiatrist and get some instruction on how to manage your anger. Even a little medication might be called for to help you while you adjust to a new way of
anger management.