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The last three year of my relationship have be quite up and down emotionally for various reasons relating to LDR, then dissapointment over not reaching goals, then finances then lack of employment on partners side. Through this time I experienced a range of emotion including anger, saddness and doubt over whether we should stay together. It is better now and we now live together. However, over the last 18 months I seem to get intrusive thoughts of guilt relating to things I originally did not feel guilty about. One of these things I eventually discussed with my partner and breifly felt better, but this was soon replaced with another feeling of guilt - this time about a time at Christmas 2010 party this collegue from work was flirting with me when someone was giving us a lift home. This collugue stroked my leg and hand. I was very drunk (partly chose to get drunk due to feeling down about relationship) and probably flirted or led him on a bit. However, when he put his arm around me I was worried it would go to far and reminded him I have a boyfriend. I repeated this a few times and he left me alone and I went home. I didn't tell boyfriend at the time as I felt I stopped it before it went too far but also because I was not feeling that good about the relationship so could understand my behaviour more. However, more recently I've been triggered to remember this and feel should i have told my boyfriend. I have mentioned to my boyfirend in the past that I have flirted with guys when drunk and apologised for this but i was not specific about this occassion. Should I have been? Or why do I keep feeling bad or guilty about things I never used to?
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May 27, 2013, 07:28 AM
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