[Maxima]

This probably isn't the right thread to put this in, but I don't know what I'm feeling.

As long as I can remember, I've felt disconnected. I clearly remember asking my mother when I was about three how to be sure that I wasn't in a book (because I didn't feel real). It's most apparent when I'm feeling happy because I feel like I should feel wonderful, but instead I just feel disconnected and vaguely happy. Sometimes, like if I experience something embarrassing, it gets really bad and I feel lightheaded and like I'm floating.

I've made a post before talking about how I feel disconnected from people, but I really feel disconnected from everything (including myself). I'm wondering if this is how everyone feels all the time, because I've never felt any different. I thought my medication would change this, but it hasn't.

[gary290]

Originally Posted by Maxima

This probably isn't the right thread to put this in, but I don't know what I'm feeling.

As long as I can remember, I've felt disconnected. I clearly remember asking my mother when I was about three how to be sure that I wasn't in a book (because I didn't feel real). It's most apparent when I'm feeling happy because I feel like I should feel wonderful, but instead I just feel disconnected and vaguely happy. Sometimes, like if I experience something embarrassing, it gets really bad and I feel lightheaded and like I'm floating.

I've made a post before talking about how I feel disconnected from people, but I really feel disconnected from everything (including myself). I'm wondering if this is how everyone feels all the time, because I've never felt any different. I thought my medication would change this, but it hasn't.

Maxima, I hope that you start to feel better soon. My wife feels disconnected from herself and other people a lot. Her pdoc thinks it is a result of PTSD.

Gary290

[Frankbtl]

Do you think maybe Aspergers?, If so it may take less usual things to make you feel happy/connected/content, so expecting yourself to be happy about things you "should" be happy about (e.g. celebrations. unexpected surprises) or feeling deep connections with people may not work so well for you. Doesn't have to make big problems for you though necessarily with some knowledge, techniques and support. Worth checking out?

[Thunder Bow]

Medications usually have an opposite effect and make you feel even more disconnected. You probably grew up in a situation where your parents was a bit inattentive. That why you don't feel real.

[Maxima]

Originally Posted by Frankbtl

Do you think maybe Aspergers?, If so it may take less usual things to make you feel happy/connected/content, so expecting yourself to be happy about things you "should" be happy about (e.g. celebrations. unexpected surprises) or feeling deep connections with people may not work so well for you. Doesn't have to make big problems for you though necessarily with some knowledge, techniques and support. Worth checking out?

I have been diagnosed with Asperger's, but I was unaware that this had anything to do with it.