If there's one thing I can't stand, it's having grammar problems. At times I forget what tense I'm using, how I should word a sentence, and how I should utter it. Sometimes I get all tongue tied. Sometimes I get disorganized with my thoughts and I start to talk about different kinds of things in one thread. I feel like something is wrong with my brain. I feel like this all started when I started to cry almost everyday in fifth grade and somehow i feel like my brain has changed dramatically since I had gone through depression and have subjected myself to abnormal sexual behavior(which most of you find to be perfectly normal). I always have a tendency to repeat words like hurdles and struggles. In that context, they're the same, right?
I cried everyday at the end of the year and I wish that my fifth grade teacher always yelled at me and told me things like I acted like a fool, I was like nelson muntz who laughed at people but hated to get a taste of my own medicine(which I think is quite true now that I think about it), and things like that. He also was very racist to asians, even though he himself was asian. He was from hong kong and he always claimed that he was born in great britain. See how I'm going off topic now. I think it's because I want to say everything all at once because if I don't I might forget later.
I cried silently because I didn't want to worry anybody. I often did. I was like everyone is so fortunate. The rest of the world is just living in peace. However, once I found people whom I could relate to, it made myself less lonely and it brought me comfort, that I was not alone.
That very same year I discovered my sexual addiction, porn. she sought me. she is like drugs, rape, and all the other addictions combined. misery loves company, they say.

I don't really have much advice. When I was younger, I used the wrong tenses. But now, I mixed my words and I freeze especially at work.