Weak moments

Seems the stars have aligned impeccably to create a situation where I am being wounded from multiple angles. I really want to retrogress to some previous behaviors. I don't really see any reason not to. I do nothing but cry. I just feel like seeking a way to get hurt. Maybe that's the solution. If you look for it, it isn't a surprise. I am considering never opening up to a human again. I don't understand them. They are all so very bleak and frigid. It is a cold, dim world out there. I knew that. I guess I simply, for a time, let go. My mistake. Won't happen again

sorry u are hurting lux, we are here for ya

I have read, "Stare into the abyss long enough and the abyss stares back". It can definitely be a cold world. All we can do is resist that coldness as best we can, and strive to create and allow better things into our lives. I am sorry to hear you are hurting ((( Lux ))).

Thank you onwards, but, if I resist, I will fully isolate, because these people seem so lovely. idk what I can possibly do. If you trust or care for ppl they can hurt you you know?

They are just so lovely, all of them. Even the ones hurting me >.<

I hope you feel better soon and will pray for you.

Thank you AV my Lady

Luxy, can't we just make babies together?

Or just cuddle for eternity? Either work

Then we'd have a hoard of Bourne babies running around. Or how about Neo....should we take the red pill or the blue? " You take the red pill, you stay in Wonderland, and I show you how deep the rabbit hole goes. " I'll pop both......how about both? Cuddle for eternity, and make Bourne/Neos

I'd rather just sleep in your arms staring up at those aluring eyes of yours

Cause you're a bona fide knight your Lordship.

Erm... people are unlikely to be both knights and Lords, well, at least they'd use the title Lord, rather than Sir.

You may just call me God, or Your highness, either works my queen :P

Your highness it is....

Good wench

Below unrelated, srsly.

And to Your .....Highness Orod.....
~~~~>Massive hugs and....
right,
off to the shore.



On another note:
completely unrelated to this place



I can't remember anything
Can't tell if this is true or dream
Deep down inside I feel to scream
This terrible silence stops me

Now that the war is through with me
I'm waking up, I cannot see
That there is not much left of me
Nothing is real but pain now

Hold my breath as I wish for death
Oh please ***, wake me

Back in the womb it's much too real
In pumps life that I must feel
But can't look forward to reveal
Look to the time when I'll live

Fed through the tube that sticks in me
Just like a wartime novelty
Tied to machines that make me be
Cut this life off from me

Hold my breath as I wish for death
Oh please ***, wake me

Now the world is gone, I'm just one
Oh *** help me
Hold my breath as I wish for death
Oh please ***, help me

Darkness imprisoning me
All that I see
Absolute horror
I cannot live
I cannot die
Trapped in myself
Body my holding cell

Land mine has taken my sight
Taken my speech
Taken my hearing
Taken my arms
Taken my legs
Taken my soul
Left me with life in h***

Nice poem. You're talented Luxy pants. Hope you're okay x

nice a bit of MetallicA

I know what you mean, life is s___

Sorry about my last negative comment, it wasn`t helpful.

chin up, things will get better in the road to recovery

Thank you so much for the Sleepsong video. I try to avoid human contact because I don`t understand their cruelty, I am told that not all people are bad, but to me they are in a majority...

Hugs hon, I understand perfectly.