[PeachCream22]

Not even sure if this is the right forum, but what i'm gonna post is something that has been bothering me for a long time.

I've always been insecure about myself. Looks, grades, social life, friends, relationships, you name it. Like. everything. i spend hours each day thinking about the ways I should or should not act, do, talk or whatever, because i dn't wanna have a bad day. I hate social gatherings, but with a few of my friends that are the closest is fine. Everyone says I just have to be myself and don't give a ***** to those who don't like me, and I am trying to be happy go lucky and positive and confident and other worries stem as in: am i being too over-confident?

Everytime I think about myself and other people on this world, I just don't feel like living anymore. Life is just a journey to the grave. I know my parents love me, and so do my friends and all, but I'm just not happy. AM I being unappreciative of life?

Each day getting up is just so hard. It's so hard doing the dishes, or laundry, or even walk up from my bed to the kitchen to do a simple chore. I feel the need to congratulate myself after being able to take a shower. I've read that these symptoms are part of depression, but what the heck am i depressed about?

Grades, I'm just so lazy to pick up a pen to do notes. I try my best to write a few sentences, and then i get lost in thinking about the nature of life or smth crappy and deep like that. I'm just doomed in academics. I can't focus. Worried about getting into uni, worried about saying the wrong thing in front of friends or family, worried about everything in life, IT'S SO overwhelming. Focusing on studies IS a good thing, right? I'm not even sure what's wrong or right anymore.

Heh, I sound demented. But whoever has experienced this, please, by all means, share your opinion. I think I really need some help here.

[gayleggg]

We are not professionals on this site, but I have to say you sound very depressed. Have you seen a doctor/psychiatrist? It might help you if you sought counseling. I am a constant worrier too. My mind gets locked onto one thing and obesses about it, then will hop to another. When it does this I can't concentrate on anything else. I take a medication to curb this tendency and it really helps, which is why I suggest a doctor might could help.
Gayle

[avlady]

I have those symptoms too i obsess when i'm first waking up in the morning especially. I worry around and around in my head that even housework becomes an obsession, worry, worry worry. I must be a worry wort. My meds take awhile to kick in and i just have to wait until they do.

[Thunder Bow]

It is good to do long thinking about the nature of life and other mysteries. Our society discourges long thinking. (You are not being paid to think). So don't think that your over thinking is so negative.

In our society we are all ways in consent fear of being rejected by family and friends. Let go of that Fear, it will make you go insane. Trust your self and your thinking. Let go of anxiety and the worries it builds on you.

[PeachCream22]

That's the thing! i can't seem to stop thinking. It's been like that for almost a year? Maybe it's a phase since that was the time i'm starting to seriously think about my future, the time i broke up with my ex, the time I'm becoming an adult cause i'm 18 this year, maybe it's just worry hormones or whatever. Whatever it is, I don't think other people are as stressed as I am, students my age, as I'm constantly reminded by friends and family i stress too much.

I think too much and not get any work done. It's just pathetic. It could be because i'm lazy. But a year? That's pretty serious..

[Thunder Bow]

Keep on thinking, don't stop now. Get in touch with the anxiety that builds worry on your mind. Therapy can help with that.

[mrcharmander]

Originally Posted by PeachCream22

Not even sure if this is the right forum, but what i'm gonna post is something that has been bothering me for a long time.

I've always been insecure about myself. Looks, grades, social life, friends, relationships, you name it. Like. everything. i spend hours each day thinking about the ways I should or should not act, do, talk or whatever, because i dn't wanna have a bad day. I hate social gatherings, but with a few of my friends that are the closest is fine. Everyone says I just have to be myself and don't give a ***** to those who don't like me, and I am trying to be happy go lucky and positive and confident and other worries stem as in: am i being too over-confident?

Everytime I think about myself and other people on this world, I just don't feel like living anymore. Life is just a journey to the grave. I know my parents love me, and so do my friends and all, but I'm just not happy. AM I being unappreciative of life?

Each day getting up is just so hard. It's so hard doing the dishes, or laundry, or even walk up from my bed to the kitchen to do a simple chore. I feel the need to congratulate myself after being able to take a shower. I've read that these symptoms are part of depression, but what the heck am i depressed about?

Grades, I'm just so lazy to pick up a pen to do notes. I try my best to write a few sentences, and then i get lost in thinking about the nature of life or smth crappy and deep like that. I'm just doomed in academics. I can't focus. Worried about getting into uni, worried about saying the wrong thing in front of friends or family, worried about everything in life, IT'S SO overwhelming. Focusing on studies IS a good thing, right? I'm not even sure what's wrong or right anymore.

Heh, I sound demented. But whoever has experienced this, please, by all means, share your opinion. I think I really need some help here.

Yes you are depressed it sounds like it's from low self esteem. Have you told anyone about this? I think you should.