[Hoggles]

So, recently someone close to me helped me out a lot by telling me that I probably have Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD). After looking around, I've decided that I should tell my mother about my concern. Today after school I tried to tell her more in depth... Now lets rewind.

Yesterday night I could not sleep for the life of me. I got Maybe thirty minutes of sleep. Once morning rolled around I decided I should stay home, since I felt I probably would accomplish nothing with that extent of sleep deprivation, but secretly that wasn't all that was wrong. I was scared, and I didn't even know what of. Yeah, I'm 14, and I'm only a freshman, and it's normal, but I honest to god do NOT know what I was scared of. I thought about it all day in my guilt, trying to figure it out.

So today after school, my stepdad brings it up. I don't like telling him things because he always yells, and being as stressed as I am, I don't need him adding more to it. I make the mistake of saying "You don't know the half of it, so don't even talk about it," and then he begins to pry. I start bawling out of stress and lock myself in the bathroom, and he keeps telling me to come out because he wants to talk about it. I scurry to my bedroom in fear and lock myself in, and I've been in here for an hour or so now.

I've realized that another problem of mine is identifying how I feel about things. I have a hard time interpreting what it is I'm feeling, and I need help. Hopefully my mom will let me go to a therapist or something- I'm actually starting to feel depressed about the whole thing...

[Thunder Bow]

Don't be to quick to labels on your self. The fear of expressing your feelings at home may not be due to GAD. Your fear has more to do with what you fear your parents are going to say to you. Therapy will help.

[avlady]

I fell awful for you i remember the first day of my freshman year in high school, it was scarry, but after the first day which we all met new people in, it was great!!! i was very too shy, and so were others i found out.

[Soundoff]

I'm pretty late to respond but I feel like I have to. It's interseting how similar your situation is to mine before I was diagnosed with GAD. Now, I'm not saying that you do because my anxiety started when my older sister started running away and later died. I was an A student but suddenly I became less motivated in school, I was slowly arriving to school later and later. I didn't want to stay in school so I would leave early. I was unable to sleep during the night but woke up early in the morning and started counting down until my alarm rang and became more terrified with every growing moment. You may or may not have GAD but you did say you were stressed, it maybe school or something else so going to see a therapist won't do you any harm.
If your still a bit curious or just want someone to talk to message me. I'm more than willing to talk.