[winterglen]

Today I lashed out at some people who have been very kind to me.

I am doing this a lot lately. I get angry at people even though they didn't do anything wrong.

I hate feeling so angry all the time, but I don't know how to stop. I don't know how to accept that it's my fault I screwed up, not theirs. I know that. The person I'm most angry at is myself. But I've got so much anger and guilt in me that it's spilling out.

I feel like I poison everything I touch. Like the only way people can understand me is if they feel as miserable as I do.

I don't want to be the kind of person who ruins other people's lives.

What should I do?

[pegasus]

Hello winterglen, welcome to Psych Central!

You are human and we all make mistakes, first you need to forgive yourself, beating yourself up is not going to help. Apologise to whoever you feel you have been lashing out at, chances are they totally understand. Hugs

[tealBumblebee]

I don't know if it is the best solution, but when I feel like i'm lashing out at people undeserving because I can con contain my mood - I choose to isolate. Maybe even offering to run to the store to pick up something they need - just to have a reason to get away and not pass on those feelings. Hope you feel better *hugs*

[Jesuszilla]

Anger isn't something I dealt with since I was a kid. But lately I have been a real jerk. I dismiss others and have just been all woe is me. Being depressed is not an excuse to be a horrible person but in the moment I want nothing to do with anybody