[indigo1015]

I've been crying every night for the past few weeks... I had stopped a few days ago, and I thought I was finished with this, but tonight it seems I've had a relapse. This is humiliating. I wish to God I could stop this - it hurts so badly. I feel like my heart is being ripped out of my chest with long, sharp fingernails. I hate myself so much - I am weak and stupid and pathetic. I can't do anything right, I can't stick to a diet or an exercise plan, I am a complete failure and a loser. I am so ashamed: I eat for emotional reasons, and that is bad. I am bad. Why on earth can't I just not cry at night??? What is going on??? I was recently put on some new medication, so why isn't it helping me??? WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME??? I feel like I don't deserve anything good, like I don't deserve to have friends or be loved. WHY AM I CRYING??? Why do I have to be like this??? I am going home for Christmas, and I can't be like this around my parents. They won't understand. I had thought I was making progress, so why is this happening??? I can't eat anymore, because obviously I don't know how to do it properly. That is just how it is. And obviously I can't be trusted to improve in other areas either - I feel like a total lost cause. I am giving up hope...

[pegasus]

Hello indigo, I'm sorry you are having such a rough time. If it's antidepressants you've been given they can take 4-6 weeks to get in the system. Hugs

[middie]

Please go back and see the Dr who changed your meds and tell them what is happening.....it does take a little while to get the meds in your system but you need some help and support in the meantime........when changing meds its a difficult time and your Dr should be seeing you regularly to check your progress in the interim period.....please go back and tell them how you are feeling and the affect the meds are having......sending you a big hug.....x