[penguinsing]

Sorry to all Hello Kitty fans, don’t get me wrong, I like Hello Kitty too. If you can find a better metaphor or better way to express it, please let me know.

I am not Hello Kitty, I have emotion too. I don’t slam door, and not even my door, because you guys don’t like it. And I don’t throw things. Every one is different, I can’t help it, and especially you don’t tell me anything or tell me the opposite and expect me to understand. I have long suffered from their passive aggressiveness, even I ask, and if you don’t tell me the truth, nothing I can do, I can’t read your mind. I don’t read your face coz of you passive aggressiveness since my life. Even when I was a little and I ask and you would not say anything, then will blast at me. I was so confuse, it drives me crazy.

I swear, I do. I don’t know what else can I do except swearing. If I act like a Hello Kitty, I would one day explode. What did I said that is consider “poisonous” ? Swearing…. Sorry I am not a lady or gentlemen like you two. I swear, many people swear, in the real world, if you live in reality. I need a vent, I don’t know how to ignore my own feelings like you two. And how what you guys have said are not “poisonous” or hurting? just because it’s has nothing to do with swearing ?

It surprise me you talked about communication last time. Coz I don’t think you guys ever tried to communicate, you never listen, and cut my line and change topic. Also, it was very strange that when I say sth normal, you can’t hear me, even I tried my best to control the tone while increasing the volume, to a point I feel I need some respiratory meds. But when I swear you hear me. Very strange.

No matter what I do, it’s wrong, no matter what I said it’s wrong and twisted morally. I don’t how much you have listened, coz everytime you would said that same thing, same old fxxking “this is not respecting”….. I wouldn’t do anything un-respecting on purpose. I just wonder how much I am being respected, especially when I said a thousand or million times of please don’t _____ me, even when I said it politely.

I said I need some time out, but did anyone respect me? I wanted to let go and tried my best to ease, but it’s doesn’t help when I don’t get a time out.

I don’t want to swear, that’s what I can do meanwhile, when I don’t get a time out. I am like a pot of boiling water with a cover. I need a hole on the cover to let go some air. And going out for a walk is not a choice at night and close to zero Celsius.


I wish I am Hello Kitty and so that everyone likes me. I am not Hello Kitty. I have emotion, I wish I don't. It's not fun, it's hurting myself too.

It is miserable when you feel that no one is listening to you. Please keep posting here. Many people are here to listen and to help. Hang in there!

[bwkeys45]

I agree with Cracking Slowly- it can suck. I also agree that it's awesome for you to share your feelings on here with people who care! I know it can be hard to try and hide your frustrations; no one can ever be a Hello Kitty. It's awesome that you're trying to find ways to vent your frustrations, and sometimes a walk in the cold is all you can do. Hugs