[McDingiswayo]

Above any feeling I have, I find fear to be the most dominant feeling that rules my life. I have done so many stupid things in the past and my mother is telling me that people who live the kind of life I live do not succeed in life. I am scared that I will fail, scared that if I leave my boyfriend (whom my mother doesn't like and is threatening to disown me because of) that I might never find another man who loves me, scared that I might ruin my life while trying to fix it, scared that everytime I make a decision I might make the wrong one.
I am afraid of living my life the way I want to live it because I am not sure if I will do the right thing. I am afraid of being alone, and having no one. I am afraid of the thought of people that I love pretending to like me. And I am afraid that I might never reach my goals, because of the behaviour that is stimulated by Bipolar....

[Travelinglady]

I'm sure it's hard to live your life in fear. We never know how the future will turn out, but it is best to try to have hope and not expect the worst. Shame on your mom for putting these ideas into your head!

[edward6]

Most, if not all, people hide in their comfort zone with few ever venturing outside that box. They feel safe and secure, but really they are not; it's only a deluded facade. You, at least, are aware of your fears. If you would do one small thing each day to face your fears, you would feel greatly empowered. What's the worst that can happen? You'll die? Well, what's happening inside you now?

Just a suggestion, how about starting with your mother; she needs it.