[Sophie0126]

My stress level is always high. These last few years have been really rough. I was the breadwinner of our family and lost my job in the economic downturn. I've been actively seeking employment till depression and rejection got the best of me and my self esteem. I've had so many life events, and most recently having to file for bankruptcy.
We've moved in with my elderly mother or else we would be homeless.
Every morning the pressure in my head makes it feel as if it's going to explode. Living with her is not comforting or comfortable.

She repeats stories that I have heard my entire lifetime.
She lives in the past.
She has to have commentary on EVERY piece of conversation.
She is nosy. She is NOT curious in an interesting way.
She lacks boundaries and does not respect QUIET time and space.

I have high blood pressure. I have my own issues to deal with. Yet living with stress like this 24/7 with the exception of when I sleep ( with the aid of something) gives me my only solace.

Mediation helps but do I have to be deep breathing and taking cleansing breaths all the time?

[izabelle]

Originally Posted by Sophie0126

My stress level is always high. These last few years have been really rough. I was the breadwinner of our family and lost my job in the economic downturn. I've been actively seeking employment till depression and rejection got the best of me and my self esteem. I've had so many life events, and most recently having to file for bankruptcy.
We've moved in with my elderly mother or else we would be homeless.
Every morning the pressure in my head makes it feel as if it's going to explode. Living with her is not comforting or comfortable.

She repeats stories that I have heard my entire lifetime.
She lives in the past.
She has to have commentary on EVERY piece of conversation.
She is nosy. She is NOT curious in an interesting way.
She lacks boundaries and does not respect QUIET time and space.

I have high blood pressure. I have my own issues to deal with. Yet living with stress like this 24/7 with the exception of when I sleep ( with the aid of something) gives me my only solace.

Mediation helps but do I have to be deep breathing and taking cleansing breaths all the time?

just dont give up keep trying look at the light at the end of the tunnel i know it seems dull but you will get their and do not worry about your mother on the inside she loves you even when shes annoying

[outlaw sammy]

Hi Sophie!

Cheer up! A year ago, my wife had me arrested for thee violent felonies (extortion, stalking, and felony criminal mischief). While I enjoyed the accommodations of our Denver city jail with a cellmate who was a 37th Avenue Crip OG (high-ranking "Original Gangster") with several first-degree murder and first-degree assault charges, I flipped out into a complete state of dissociative amnesia (i.e. repressed memory). Six days later the guard is calling me out to be released because the DA dropped all the false charges. Once on the street, I couldn't go home because my wife got a restraining order against me, so I ended up going into a hospital for malnutrition and electrolyte (5) depletion followed by five days in the psychiatric intensive care. Then from there I was cast into the streets homeless and destitute. I'm recovering, with the help of God, and the desire to succeed.

So be tuff girl!

[Stronger]

I'm sorry that this is happening. But you did say "we", which means that you do have a spouse or someone, right? That means that you're not alone! And even if you were, you still have us.
Have you ever seen the movie the pursuit of happiness? Remember when will smith was sleeping in the subway bathroom with his son because he didn't have anywhere to go and one bad thing after another just kept happening? But at the end of the movie his life is completely different.
And yours can be too!
Don't give up! Stay strong, my friend.

[Sophie0126]

Originally Posted by Stronger

I'm sorry that this is happening. But you did say "we", which means that you do have a spouse or someone, right? That means that you're not alone! And even if you were, you still have us.
Have you ever seen the movie the pursuit of happiness? Remember when will smith was sleeping in the subway bathroom with his son because he didn't have anywhere to go and one bad thing after another just kept happening? But at the end of the movie his life is completely different.
And yours can be too!
Don't give up! Stay strong, my friend.

I don't know if I can stay strong anymore. Just when I think I'm making some headway, I get knocked down again. It feels like it's harder than the last time I got knocked down. It's like they say, when you keep hearing the bad things all the time you begin to believe it all. I've lost sight of me and am so broken, that I don't think I can keep picking up the pieces anymore.

[Thunder Bow]

"Mediation helps but do I have to be deep breathing and taking cleansing breaths all the time?"

Yes you do. I do this, when even I am camping out up at Spirit Mountain. Good or bad, keep doing this. Get to know yourself better.

Your sleep seems to be good thus you are feeling better than you think. Be the Warrior that you are, and you will do well. Be resourceful.