[holdinon]

I have no therapy background, never been into any sort of professional healing or counseling. I don't even know if I needed one. I just started reading about mental conditions and human behavior disorders in an attempt to define what I've been going through.

I'm so pissed right now and hopeless but I'm able to compose myself which I'm a pro or at least I think so. People around me wouldn't even think I'm having a hard day. There's just a lot of stuff going on around me that are all unpleasant I feel I'm getting suffocated.

I'm having a separation anxiety with my boyfriend. He lives in another country but currently here until last week of this month. I wanted to spend more time with him however our work schedules are interfering and I have this paranoia that he doesn't want to see me as much I do. Rarely sends a message as compared before. We had a petty fight last Friday and whenever we have misunderstanding he tends to give a cold shoulder. I can't really talk to him, I'm wary of his possible outburst, he has a temper. Don't get me wrong, never did he hurt me physically but he can be so mean when he's mad. It's like I'm dealing with two different people. When he's in his normal state, he's such a darling but when his temper strikes it just scares me. His words are simply intolerably harsh. I love him but I don't want another abusive relationship.

My mom's adopted daughter has been bugging me for 2 weeks now that she stays in my apartment while she does all her job interviews. I can hardly take care of myself now let alone have another person in my place. She told me she's coming here with her flight booked already. I don't even like her! She took everything that was supposed to be mine/ours. That sounded awful, I know. I'm kinda tick off that I had no one when I was in her situation and now they expect me to help her. My mom left us when I was only 7y.o., years later we found out she adopted this girl..I mean why would you leave your 5 kids and grab somebody's baby?

And this morning, we got our new work sched and it's the sched that I explicitly told my boss I cant have but to no avail. She gave me the most inconvenient work shift for me this month.

I've been crying for days now and I feel so worn out. I have nobody to talk to, I texted my BF and I cant seem to get the comfort I needed. Talk about all odds. WhyOhWhy

[Thunder Bow]

A Therapist can help your understand family issues. They are the root of your current feelings.

[holdinon]

Originally Posted by Thunder Bow

A Therapist can help your understand family issues. They are the root of your current feelings.

I've been thinking of seeing a therapist. I only hope I'll find the courage to do so. Thank you Thunder Bow.