[blipsycat]

I have nothing left to live for. I want to kill myself. Please help me.

[Stronger]

I have felt like that many many times. So many times it was because I would look at my future and see darkness. I'd see a whole lot of pain and suffering that I sure didn't want to have to deal with.
But you have to know that there is another side! I promise you. The other side doesn't look anything like the world you are in now. It is full of hope, and light, and a future that is not full of darkness. But the hard part is getting there.
For me, this last time it took two weeks of intense inpatient treatment at a horribly inconvenient time in my life. In the past it has taken either three weeks or more than two months of inpatient. But no matter what it takes. It helped get me to the other side. I am here today. And I am glad that I am here today. I'm not saying that everything is perfect now. But I am saying that my future has a hope that wasn't there before.

You may not know what it will take to get to the other side. But please know that no matter what it takes, you CAN get there!! you can! I believe in you, my friend.

Right now, the question you have to ask yourself is "do I trust myself?" And if the answer is no (you have to be honest for this to work), then you need to get yourself to a hospital.
There is nothing wrong with going to the hospital to help get you back on your feet. I've had to do it many times.
And that's how I know that there is another side.
(Did you know that I found PC because I was looking on the internet for ways to kill myself. But shhh, that's a secret I'm ashamed of, so don't tell.)

I'm going to tell you something. And I want you to hear it, ok?
You are more important than you could ever realize. You MATTER!

[blipsycat]

All of that is BS. My "best friend" just abandoned me forever. I am scum. There is no hope for scum.

[Yoda]

I am sorry that you lost your best friend. It doesn't make you scum to have someone walk out on you though you probably feel like scum right now.

You won't always feel the way you do right now.

[blipsycat]

You're right about one thing. I won't always feel the way I do now. Soon, I will feel much, much worse.

That's the one constant I've found about life. Whenever you think it can't get worse, it finds a way to get worse. And the rare good times only happen to make the fall to the bad times again feel that much more horrible.

[RTerroni]

WOW that sounds very strong, I have never seriously considered suicide but I have passively, just look on the bright side of things and you will be able to get through anything.

[gayleggg]

There is no looking at the good side of things when you are that depressed. I know I've been there and back. All there is, is blackness.

I will say see a doctor asap. A medication intervention may be the only thing to bring you out of this depressive episode. I've been there and with the depression lifted things won't seem so bad. But need to call suicide hotline or doctor. PM if you need to talk.