[Invisible112]

What's sad is the fact someone has to cry to feel any emotion at all. I am muted. I feel like my parents jsut are not seeing anything anymore. They are currently going through a divorce after 2.5 long painful years, of me screaming at them on the phone about not to kill themselves, or to not walk into the oncoming traffic on the highway. I now get chest pains and at the moment i have bad migraines and i am still expected to go and be the A student in year 11 and not care about anything about grades, parties and boys. But i don't. I feel i won't ever be loved. Is that silly? Am i insane or is it normal?

[kaliope]

hi invisible
no you are not being silly. it sounds like your parents are thinking only about themselves and putting you in the middle. in a divorce parents should be thinking about the best interest of the children but it does not sound as if this is the case. they are putting their emotional needs onto you and forcing you to be the adult in the relationship and take care of them. putting their needs first. if they are going to do this, it is natural for you to wonder if they are still going to love you. they are being very loving right now. I know it is hard, but you have to realize you are dealing with some very selfish people right now and this really isn't about you. if you ever felt loved by your parents, hold on to those feelings to get you through this trying time. if you can talk to them, let them know how you are feeling. tell them you are tired of being in the middle of their conflict and how much it is harming you. hopefully it will be the wakeup call they need to start acting appropriately. welcome to psych central. you will find that we have several forums where you can post about your concerns and receive feedback from other members. you will get a lot of support here. again, welcome