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my father has been sick cancer two actually for a while now....and no it feels like stuff is getting "real" every time I have asked him if he is doing ok he seems like yes he is....but now there is more testing going on..
and he is sending a copy of his living will to me. which I don't even fully know what all that is and means to me. I just know emotionally I really question if I can handle the passing of another family member again. dealing with two grandparents passing and now all this on top of my regular living stresses and such. I don't know how I can deal with all this. Every time I try to think about the situation, I feel weak and fragile and I end up crumbling into a pile. due to being bipolar and BPD I am emotionally sensitive enough as it is.
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Dx:OCD, AD/HD-C and ADD kinda both, General Anxiety Disorder, Separation Anxiety Disorder,Abandonment Anxiety, Cycothymic disorder, or mixed bipolar, Border Line Personality Disorder,Histonic Personality Disorder, Dependent Personality disorder, eating disorder ]Rx:Lamotrigine 25mg twice a day for my mood stablizer as well as I am on Escitalopram 10mg 1 daily, Buspirone 3 times daily 10mgs VT Student, CNA student, working HHA ![]() |
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I'm sorry your father is not doing well and you are going through this. I believe I know how you feel. I watched my father as he deteriorated until his death from cancer. I know this is difficult, but I would suggest you spend as much time with your dad as possible. I treasure the time I had with my father.
I was in the midst of a deep depression during this time, but I started seeing him once a week, then a few times a week and as his cancer progressed, everyday. He would ask me to sit with him as he took his nap and I did, holding his had. As I sat with him I would think about the great times we had through our lives. When he woke up I would share those memories with my dad. The day before he died, as he was falling asleep, I told him it was OK to let go, that we would be OK. As I was driving to his place the following day, I got the call. As sad as I was I found solace in that he was no longer suffering. Regarding the living will, it's a document that spells out your father's wishes regarding medical treatment if he becomes incapacitated and is unable to communicate. My father had one, I have one. |
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the problem with that is I really want but he actually lives in FL now....and I work two fast food jobs so getting time off is hard thing for me to do. But I need to take time to go see him some time soon if I can.
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Dx:OCD, AD/HD-C and ADD kinda both, General Anxiety Disorder, Separation Anxiety Disorder,Abandonment Anxiety, Cycothymic disorder, or mixed bipolar, Border Line Personality Disorder,Histonic Personality Disorder, Dependent Personality disorder, eating disorder ]Rx:Lamotrigine 25mg twice a day for my mood stablizer as well as I am on Escitalopram 10mg 1 daily, Buspirone 3 times daily 10mgs VT Student, CNA student, working HHA ![]() |
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