Had a Rough Visit with Mom Yesterday

I thought my anxiety was getting a bit better til last week when I fell back into it really hard. A lot of things going on, mostly money stuff and starting treatment for ADHD with my son, something I'm very apprehensive about, and we've been having troubles getting his medicine because first he wasn't covered on his new CHiPs card for some reason, so my husband got that dealt with. Then when we tried to pick up his medicine they said they needed a pre-approval from his doctor before we could have them. So tried calling his doctor that day but he had already left for the day, so we waited all weekend. Now I have to make the call today because my husband is at work. I'm really shy and so nervous. Then yesterday I went to visit my parents, and mom gave me a long lecture about why I don't divorce my husband. Things have never been great between me and him - some verbal and emotional abuse, lies - can hardly believe anything he says to you - or just tells me nothing, he seems to get paid pretty well but we never have much money for anything after bills so where is the money going, he's very lazy, never spends time with our son, he and his sister tried to have my dad and sister put in jail some years ago (true, but of course fell through because they had done nothing)... Just a total onslaught. I'm aware of all this and have been for years, but besides being scared to do it, I have no money of my own, no job, have our son, I have 2 cats and 2 birds - probably wouldn't be able to get an apartment so where would I stay, etc. We just lost our home to fire in December. I lost my 10 cats and everything else. I've had a lot to deal with, am still grieving, think I have ptsd, and have been suffering terrible anxiety since. Then she started lecturing church and Bible to me and we got into the fire and I just started crying. Then she said she felt like a bad parent, like trying to guilt-trip me. She was just in the hospital for major surgery in May and have been visiting almost daily since. I'm not far away. I was hoping to become closer and have pleasant visits, but she's starting to be her old self again and doesn't really understand my feelings and what all I'm going through and how I'm having such a hard time dealing with things. I really didn't need this yesterday on top of everything else I've been dealing with. I love my mom and know she's just concerned for my happiness, but I'm just feeling almost over the edge now after all that.