Feel like Exploding when I get excited. Why?

So ever since I can remember, I have always had a lower level of excitement towards things than other people. However, when I would get really excited I never knew how to express it (I still don't). Instead I just feel it building up inside me making me feel closed in, jittery, in a word, wanting to explode in every way possible. As a child I would do this by rappidly kicking my legs or other such explosive movements.
In addition to this, when I try and force myself to appear really excited(even if I am) it leaves me feeling very emotionally drained.
In other words, I have somewhat of an inability to express my emotions, which is why they build up inside me. I feel comfortable talking about my emotions, or writing about them, but have a hard time physically expressing them.

Any idea why this is?

Hello, embracingchar, and welcome to Psych Central! I am wondering if somehow you were encouraged not to express certain emotions growing up or at least not to very openly express them.

Have you considered talking to a therapist about this issue? That might help to find the cause and/or help you to learn proper ways of expressing your emotions.

Look to your childhood

psychological or sensory or both, the reasons or causes are endless until discussed with a therapist or something i guess, hope it works out for you, but i really understand what you mean it makes me sad.

Hm, I like how you've described this, agree with travellinglady that a therapist might be able to unpin or unravel exactly why this happens. The way it happens with me is a feeling which lasts under 10 seconds-that's how it feels- and then a rush of either anxiousness or adrenaline then I actually forget what I was excited about, and continue with a flat mood.
What does your feel like?

I'd say its both, its both very much a sensory/physical feeling as well as a psychological feeling of being somewhat trapped, anxious, etc..

Yea, I'm taking psychology so I was thinking about asking some of my professors about it.

That actually sounds a lot like what mine sounds like, though sometimes It lasts longer than 10 seconds, or rather, there are short bursts like that, but they can continue happening for a while.

It's funny you guys should agree with that in some respects, it really sounds sensory, like a sensory dysfunction, which I am learning is also part of symptoms related to the autism spectrum. However this obviously does not clarify any sign of autism and I am not expert at all!

I would like to know what your professor says about sensory dysfunction and this feeling of 'exploding emotions'.

Thanks!

Omg it was nearly constant all day today, how strange, have you guys experienced this also?

One after the other

perhaps your ashamed of emotional displays