[Melomelon]

i really dont know what love means, but i know that i got a fluffy kind feeling 3 years ago when i met that guy. i don't feel it anymore, maybe because i got some older and those feelings don't play a big role in my life. but still, with the same guy, i try to convince myself it's still there. but actually, i dont know. i dont know why either. i know that what he thinks of me means everything to me, not literally what he thinks of me, but if i am the one to make him happy, it's like a weight goes off my shoulders. it's something i have to do. it sounds so weird.. secondly, it's soo important to me if he cares about me. more than anyone else, if a friend left, i would be sad and dissapointed, and feeling betrayed. but when he left.. it felt like i failed. i want to talk to him again, but im afraid i will fail again. and i totally emberrassed myself in front if his friend, which is the only one near him which still wants to talk to me. i still keep finding excuses for why i did this, or why i did that. i dont know why i can just quit talking about it because all what i say about it is complete nonsense. i feel so bad, how can i turn everything back?

[Travelinglady]

Hi, Melomelon. Hmmm, it sounds to me like you are just trying to hang on to a relationship for unhealthy reasons. I'm not quite sure what they are. Are you concerned you might not find anyone else?

Actually, you might want to post about this matter in the Relationships and Communication forum? Here is the link:http://forums.psychcentral.com/relat...communication/.