[badjuju89]

My poor mom. Shes the sweetest person in the whole world.. she tries to get me so much. And I just blind side her with rambles and emotional jumbled messes of coversations and she tries ti cone up with solutions. But when im this down and emotional I dont know up from down and I tell her this. I feel bad for her because I know as my mom she just wants to make this all better for me so shes scraping and grasping for something. But its just an outlet for me but I think its bad for me to use her as one. It seems to stress her out so much more. And i dont want to be a burden or cause her pain. She already has enough on her plate as is. It seems as though it sort of just kinda comes flowing out though. Idk. She doesnt deserve it. Wish I could just buck up and be better... heh... the dream huh... wish I ciuld atleast give her something like a vacation or something from all this hot mess.. lol.. gawd knows shes earned it ten times over

[glok]

Hello, badjuju89. Do you think talking to a therapist would help both you and your Mom?

I wish you well.

[Altered Moment]

I am 50 but for the past couple of years I have been back with my parents due to very bad depression. the first year I was using them as my primary emotional support. Especially my mom as she understands and is very caring and non judgemental. One day I saw this extreme look of pain on her face and could see how it pained her to be powerless to make me ok. I decided right then and there that I would no longer burden my parents with my everyday ups and downs and thinking. They are still very supportive and help me but I have used other outlets such as this forum and in real life friends, my pdoc, etc. I have been at it for twenty years and lived 2500 miles from my family that whole time so I know how to get outside support but it was just to easy to stay home and rely on them.

[badjuju89]

Originally Posted by glok

Hello, badjuju89. Do you think talking to a therapist would help both you and your Mom?

I wish you well.

Financially we cant... plus its kind of one way.. I wory about her just as much as she worries about me.. so she wont open up about her feelings like that too much to me even though I ask her to be transparent about it.. its okay though I respect it.

[badjuju89]

Originally Posted by zinco14532323

I am 50 but for the past couple of years I have been back with my parents due to very bad depression. the first year I was using them as my primary emotional support. Especially my mom as she understands and is very caring and non judgemental. One day I saw this extreme look of pain on her face and could see how it pained her to be powerless to make me ok. I decided right then and there that I would no longer burden my parents with my everyday ups and downs and thinking. They are still very supportive and help me but I have used other outlets such as this forum and in real life friends, my pdoc, etc. I have been at it for twenty years and lived 2500 miles from my family that whole time so I know how to get outside support but it was just to easy to stay home and rely on them.

Yeah... my therapy goes so far.. I just joined here ima see how this goes as far as an outlet... friends wise in person are quite limited... they havent known really what to do with me since I had my break down back in February. Most kinda vanished and the ones who are negative about it I just dropped because I dont need that around me. So im quite limited on resources as far as outlets go.. she wants to know how im doing and she reads me like a book whether I tell her or not.. so idk. I dont wana lie but I dont wana start telling her and end up in a pool of tears on her bed either. Idk im sure ill figure something out. Always have. Im only 25 and newly diagnosed.. ima get this thing beat as best I can